Morning ladies. I haven’t been around for a while, as in a chemo haze, I managed to drop and shatter my iPad. DOH. This was around day 3 of my fifth cycle but I only got it back recently, at the start of my sixth cycle… and I have been asleep for three days following that! It seems that lots of people have moved forward and have started their Tamoxifen and/or the radiotherapy now , congrats on finishing yr chemo. Hope all is going well for you all. I’m still experiencing the side effects from the chemo but hopefully, in a week or so that part will all be over. I’ve got my planning meeting for the radiotherapy next Friday and then I think I start it proper towards the end of the month. I will be taking Arimidex rather than Tamoxifen as this didn’t agree with me last time. Keep well all
…and Dealdoh races to the finish line!!! Yay and shes done it…brilliant news just got to shake off this last Chemo hangover!!
MooMoo and Shocked thank you for your support…its hard at this stage not to feel guilty about pondering over something thats so cosmetic after everything weve all been through!!
Shocked Im having the double Braxon too…read your post elsewhere that you are fairly happy with the results. How long before you got really mobile? Did you have a Lymph node clearance?
Cant believe youre about to move Shocked…not sure they recomend that in the surviving Breast cancer leaflets!!!
Hope everyone is enjoying the sunshine…maybe we should all climb on the raft with Dealdoh and have a little snooze in the sun xxx
Aliand ???hows the raft doing beautiful, I sent mr dicaprio diving for some exotic pearls to pretty the raft up a bit and also he yanked up Daniel Craig in his bond shorts for you too ???
Shi xx
Hi Shocked, and everyone else! I haven’t been on for a while as I’ve been feeling a bit rubbish, although better at the moment (probably coz I’m on my 3 steroid days).
I thought I was getting off lucky when I changed from 3 weekly T to weekly pax, and yes the side effects are much easier, but I no longer get my “good week” to look forward to, just feel rubbish every day, which is really draining mentally and emotionally. People keep saying “well only 3 more to go!” but for me that’s at least 3 more weeks of feeling like this, plus I’m guessing a few more weeks to get back to anything resembling normal, so maybe come mid-June I might be able to celebrate.
The good thing is I’ve got a counselling session next week (probably should’ve pushed for it sooner) which I think will be really beneficial. I’ve stopped going to work until treatment is all done, so lately the only people I’ve had to talk to is my partner and daughter so I’ve made plans to see a friend tomorrow morning and another on Tuesday. I had a good talk with one of the chemo nurses on Wed as well which was nice. It’s also good hearing from you all on here, going through it all together.
All the best everyone xx
Amy that is so crap not having the good week ?and I get what you mean About the ‘yay only one more to go ‘ shocked x
I’m in my low week of cycle 5 so may 17 th is my last one , I went to see onc nurse yesterday and just sat and cried my eyes out ! Now I’ve got to the ‘one more ‘ stage I feel as if I can’t do it anymore , that last one is hanging over me like a great big bloody fat cloud , I know I can and will do it but I just feel like my body has reached the end , doesn’t help having the tax trots and not being able to go far from a loo , knowing I’ve got to do it one more time is just crap ( excuse the pun ) xxxxx
Just treading water ???
Jamesy…thats exactly what happened to me. The thing is you think youre going to have this big moment of joy and I can handle anything because its the end but I found the opposite, the last one caused me more anxiety than any other. On the plus side you will have it and it will be rubbish but two weeks later you will be free and it does feel so so so good. You are normal though I cried more before and after that last cycle than I did any other time…I think when we get to the end maybe we just have nothing left to fight with.
Sending you and Amy huge huge hugs…i still feel emotional thinking about that last week.
Amy I have a friend whos on weekly and I wouldnt swap for anything. I think really crap, then average week then good week has to be better than blah every day…hang in there xxx
Hi shocked yes last chemo I was back on fec, it didn’t do too much more to my turtle head car air freshener look ??and got that lush new shampoo red dot on the shiny bonce after the 3 weeks was up on the final chemo and that’s made all the difference on hot regrowth, ??? just look at it like having a kinder surprise you don’t know what colour it’ll be or if it’ll be curly or straight. I did no 1 mine again as it did come back a bit patchy to start with but after that coverage and thickened up nicely ???Shi xx
Aww shocked this is such a big step retiring. I have been ignoring all work and extra responsibilities like Guides and Rangers I run and have head in cloud just head down focused on getting through.its like preservation for survival blocking it all out…bit as I’ve just had last tax today Yeah! …im getting closer to having to examine my priorities in life too and what I should cut back to survive. I must admit I’d love to retire and I’m 47 but done 30 years nhs service and was running on low prior to this. I could be convinced if wasn’t for money as need to get mine through uni yet…but then again there is also some sanity and normality in getting back to work and even support! But such a big decision for you x I hope it’s the right decision for you.they should help with a return to work and look at lower hours and work adaption in role if you have looked at it all. All I’m saying is don’t rush while you feel as rubbish as you are but at the same time I don’t blame you more to life than work xx
MooMoo thats amazing youve made it over the line…brilliant news…just think in 1 week youll be feeling better and this time you dont have to count the days xxx
Shocked good for you…I love working but I have already decided on my next pay review I am def going to say I dont want more money I want more time off…I think all of this shows us how important time for ourselves is.
xxx
Wow shocked you have been through it I can see why you’ve made that decision. How exciting with your new start and new house…its seems like the best decision and the right time for some good times ahead! … get the cocktails back in on that raft! X
I can’t wait for a G an T feeling giddy must be steroids x
Fel my beautiful ???lady, you have got to the end, you stand up straight and proud my darling you have done amazing ???now get that I’m a survivor t-shirt on and towel yourself off or did you use the rocket jet pack from the raft straight to the beach ? everyone of you beautiful January ladies and amazing and beautiful and lovely strong brilliant swimmers be proud of yourselves and each other ???Shi xx
hey ladies, well done Fel!
just thought I would share a photo of me and my daughter at my,cousins wedding yesterday. It was something to keep me focused and look forward to through chemo. It took half an hour to get my Primark eyelashes on and I was surprised how emotional it was to put all the fake parts on. Everyone now asleep but I’m still standing at 1am.
Lots of love to all ??keep swimming xxxx
Oh wow starfire you look amazing and your daughter is so cute. You have done brilliant x and gel don’t worry I meant I’ll be ready for g and t soon
But not yet i was just dreaming of it as dosed up on chemo at mo but looking forward to it as you will too in couple of weeks when that poor mouth is better and mine will of done the chores we shall have a toast together! Xx
Starfire ???you look stunning ??? thank you for sharing beautiful photo of you and your daughter ???Shi xx
Starfire you look fab. It’s anazing how we can pull ourselves together isn’t it no one would know what hell you’ve been through to look at that. So glad you had a great day. Will need the lashes myself soon I could count the eyebrow hair and yet my top lip keeps growing !
Day 3 T3 feeling crap but expecting too so I’m out in the garden - in the shade reading listening to the birds and pretending life’s not too bad. Every muscle aches, nothing has any taste, feeling a bit nauseous but I’m here and I’m fighting ?? Knowing I’ve only one more left feels good. Surgery dates all booked in so I can see the road I’m on.
Fel and moo moo fab you are both at the end of chemo delighted for you ???
Shi thanks for dragging Daniel Craig up he looks like he could give me a good massage - as long as he’s gentle anyway !
Have a lovely bank holiday weekend everyone. Xxx
Congrats to those that have finished ?
Nice one Starfire, you look amazing! So glad you were able to have a good time. I’ve got a wedding to go to in July so really looking forward to feeling better for that!
Aliand, your posts are always so positive, and on day 3 of T, ergh! But your countdown is on, yay ?
So not feeling this weather tho, which is really not me, I usually love the sun but chemo makes me want to cower inside.
Keep going girls, you are nearly there. Lots and lots of love ???
Starfire you look lovely…
Aliand hang on in there lovely…
Amy you’ll be back outside soon…
Fel…you’ve done amazing…your body has just nope no more…just heal now!!
im sulking in the kitchen!! Had a great big row with husband! It’s so strange isn’t it…I can’t imagine for one minute I could be an arse too him if he was going through this!!! I think because I get on with stuff I make it easy for him to forget that I’m still more than a little bit fragile!!!
Sorry ladies just needed a vent…xxx
Oh Rosie I know what you mean. I often think my oh forgets what I’m going through. I’m organised and so he’s had to do no housework or laundry through this. He popps off to work everyday and forgets, we’ve had some spats but mainly I’ve just gone quiet and disappeared too. Hoping after this is over we get back to normal again.