just wanted to say hello and hope you are all doing ok today. I have really really been feeling fine & positive since I got my scan date and ready to face whatever the results may be. The first week after finding the lump and seeing strange things going on with my nipple I was a bit of a wreck and not able to sleep. But since going back to the doctors and knowing I am getting the necessary tests I have been feeling fine. I know that worrying won’t change ANYTHING. It is what it is already.
However, just been with a bunch of friends who aren’t aware of what’s going and started to feel a slight panic rise up inside of me. I guess it’s partly to do with feeling alone in the whole experience and also a slight attack of “what ifs”.
Anyway, all that to say that I really appreciate this forum where you can relate to other ladies facing the same concerns, tests, results etc. It is a real help to know no-one on here is going to think you are over-reacting and lovely to see everyone supporting people as they head to the docs and hospitals etc.
Good Morning Nanny,
Im so glad you are feeling positive about your scan. I think i does help you deal whith whatever they throw at you. I was feeling strong all the way up until after my op and thats when i broke. Im so glad i was able to hold it together till then as everyone else needed my support (daft it may seem).
I too am so glad iv found this forum as there is lots of wonderful positive women like yourself here to pick me up when i am down and for me in return do the same to everyone else.
I just keep thinking to myself that what is there is there and i cant change it but i will try bl**dy hard to kick its a*se when the time comes to.
Hope your well today
take care
from one of your friends
claire xxx
It is good that you are feeling more positive, especially now you have your scan date. I was stronger and more positive once I had started my chemo, and up til then was a wreck with the waiting and worrying. When you know something positive is being done to help you, it makes it a bit more bearable.
It is hard with friends, as although they know, and they care and are sympathetic, helpful, loving whatever, they really do not know what you are going through properly. This forum has been a lifeline to me really, and helped me through some of my darkest days.
I hope your scan is good and the results are the best, and will keep hoping and praying for good results.
I think it’s always so much easier when we know what we’re dealing with…
In the meantime; you couldn’t find a better bunch of people than on this forum.
Good luck with your scan - like beano said, it does get easier once you know what you’re dealing with. I was a wreck from biopsy to results, I don’t know how I held it all together to be honest. I did confide in my friends who have been absolutely wonderful and supportive throughout, but the girls on here are brilliant, its great to be able to talk to someone else who truly understands what you’re going through.
Let us know how you get on - we’re all here for you.
I second everything said above, this forum really helps and its so nice to know that we all understand each other completely without really having to say anything - I find it very hard to express myself sometimes but everyone here knows exactly what I am trying to say.
Nanny, its good that you are feeling positive now, it will surely help you to deal with whatever comes and when feeling good, positive and a little more confident it all seems a little less daunting. Feeling a little panicky is also normal, don’t ever feel alone, we may not be there in body but we are all joined together in spirit to help you through this. Well done, your doing great.
thanks so much for your comments! You are all going through so much and as I read your posts I continue to be amazed at how you all encourage one another and keep your sense of humour!
I am making sure I keep myself busy over this next week which helps the time pass faster. The lump hasn’t disappeared yet as the doc had thought it would. Although I half imagine that it will disappear the day of the scan and they will wonder what all the fuss was about!
Hope you all have a good day… it’s the last day before my older two go back to school so I plan to enjoy the day!
You hang in there girl, your doing so well. If they told me yesterday that I have bc I think I would still feel a little easier today, because At least I would know what was wrong. The not knowing it really hard to get over, but the time soon passes.
It feels like the longest 2 weeks of your life or however long it is, but when it happens, you realise it wasn’t that long at all really!
I hope you keep your positive attitude going, if only I had the same presence of mind that you have now! I’m all doom and gloom lol!!
