Hi all, so I had a fabulous week in the Lake District last week with my partner, sister and her partner. Conquered a couple of mountains - very tough but such an achievement. So pleased I managed to get away before my surgery tomorrow. Really enjoyed the fresh air, location and great company.
Just at home busying myself with work this morning. We are driving up to London this afternoon to stay over as I have to check in at 7.30 tomorrow morning for the radio injection, then the wire insertion and then the surgery. All being well, I should be coming home tomorrow afternoon/early evening.
So far, since being diagnosed on 25th July with Grade 2 IDC from a routine mammogram (still doesn’t seem real), I have not shed a single tear - I guess they are not too far away now especially as I absolutely hate having a general anaesthetic, I have a real phobia about them. I feel like my life is about to spiral any minute now and I that I am just coming along for the ride over which I will have little control.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my rant - I’m going to crack on now with my chores and get ready to set off around 3pm at which point I guess reality will start to hit - it is happening to me and yes, it is really real.
Wishing everyone with upcoming surgery and test results all the very best.
Hi Anita,
So glad to hear you had such a good time away.
Our diagnoses & treatment are similar & like you, I was not tearful throughout it, although I did have a couple of wobbly days & once over the initial shock of diagnosis, was grateful that, thanks to mammos, it was picked up early, so I also felt lucky.
You may well be fine tomorrow, I remember feeling so relieved the day had arrived & that I was getting rid of the little b*****, that I relaxed, my bp went down & almost enjoyed the experience. The team were great & I had a nice chat with the anaesthetic team before going under. The next thing I remember, was the nurse telling me the op was over & would I like a drink.
You don’t have to shed a tear, Anita, but it’s fine if you do!
All the best for tomorrow.
ann x
Hi Anita. So glad you have had a lovely break. I understand how you feel about your life changing and not being in control - i am a week away from starting chemo!! Tomorrow you will be in great hands and as Ann said one stop closer to getting rid of the visitor that nobody wants!! After tomorrow it will be time to rest and recuperate so get your favourite tv shows, box sets or books ready and treat yourself to things that you like! When the tears do come, you let them flow and let it all out. Sending you a big hug and a prayer for tomorrow. Lots of love xx
Glad that you had a good break away. If you are otherwise fit and healthy you should recover pretty quickly from surgery. I felt fragile for the first few days then pretty much resumed life as normal. Make sure that you do the suggested exercises and rest up initially and you will be fine and will feel better for getting rid of the lump and knowing that it can no longer go anywhere.
I haven’t shed a tear either, I have felt emotional a few times but have consciously or unconsciously who knows kept a lid on it. I see the oncologist on Thursday so reality will bite again then but my surgery was 5.5 weeks ago and I have been living normally for the last 3 or 4 of those. Even camped ata music festival 2 weeks after and was lugging heavy bags and boxes around this weekend moving YD into her uni hall room on the fifth floor with a lift that only went to the 3rd!
Best of luck for a quick recovery clear margins and no node involvement x
Hi Anita, thinking of you tomorrow and hope it all goes well. I was nervous about having the anaesthetic and asked one of the anaesthetists if he’d hold my hand, next I knew I was in the recovery room!
Thanks all just out for pizza and glass of wine. Stress levels now rising. Clock is ticking and my heart is racing. This time tomorrow hopefully I will be home and tucked up in my own bed. My sister is on the first train into London tomorrow to support me and my partner. I wish I was back in the Lake District now where I forgot for a few days that this was really real. Anita x
Thank you so much. I can’t do this on my own right now and my partner and family so emotional especially my mum despite me spending time reassuring her. I’ve been so calm until now x
All the best for tomorrow Anita, I promise the first cup of tea you have after your surgery will be the best cup of tea you have ever had!! I’m 5 days post surgery & been for a short walk & a sneaky glass of wine out this evening. Thinking of you tomorrow.
Scooter
I am trying to pretend that nothing has changed at the moment. I am covering for a colleague this week who has a few days off so I have been working full time and have been nicely busy. When we took YD to uni for the first time on Sunday I just wanted to stay and be a fresher and go out every night and have new experiences and be young FREE and maybe even single but my hubby is lovely really!
Best of luck x
Anita good luck for tomorrow after both my surgeries I found I had no choice but to nap although I am not sure nap is the right word as each nap was at least 2 hours ? X
Cherry good luck for tomorrow xx
Both of you let’s us know how you get on as soon as you’re up to it xx big hugs
Well done ladies for not being cry babies! I’ve always been an emotional one whether happy or sad I shed the tears!
I had a cry today after a fallout with my daughter but felt better afterwards so probably needed it!
Then after the cry I have had a lovely day with my mum!
CherryB
Good luck tomorrow with first chemo! You will be just fine.xxx
Hi Jencat
Just seen you on another thread. I can see you and me together crying buckets…then bursting out laughing!!! Keep us posted tomorrow, you will feel lots better. Write down any questions you need to ask.xxx
Ck and Jen I have cried loads recently but find it cathartic and feel better after. I cry for good news too my hubby just disappointed I haven’t got blue tears ??? yes ck appointment tomorrow at 3 for axillary node removal results but surprisingly I am not worried I think it is because I know that no matter what my treatment plan will still be the same and the relief of no spread from ct scan makes everything else doable xx
They won’t frighten you Jencat. Just tell you your treatment plan. Tell your daughter to take note of what is said too as you might not remember everything. I wrote things down when I was there every time to remind me. They don’t mind.xx
I’m half an hour from home. Surgery went really well today. Feel surprisingly well. Have got some superb bruises already! Resilts on 3rd October from sentinel node biopsy and the lumpectomy . Feel like a weight has been lifted even though I wasn’t really conscious of it before if that makes sense? Can’t wait to get into my own bed! Onwards and upwards now and focussing on good news on 3rd October.
Thanks again to everyone’s lovely posts. Anita xx