I am new to this forum so hello! My story is that my family has a history of breast and ovarian cancer, with the latter causing me and my sisters to have early hysterectomies. Due to the history, (including 1 sister having had, recovered now, breast cancer), I have been having yearly mammograms since I was 40 (nearly 7 years ago). My recent one showed something up so 2 days ago I went for an ultrasound. The doc said that they found something “tiny” = 8mm and also slight inflammation of a lmph node so she obtained the biopsies from the “lump” as she described it and the extracted fluid I guess from the lymph node. Anyway I am freaking out, but as the title of this thread suggests, I keep yo-yoing between positive and not so positive thinking and obsessing with finding out everything I can about it. I keep trying to replay everything she said and trying to remember exactly what it looked like on the screen. I keep on thinking “if it was a harmless cyst, it would be filled with fluid and not a lump, so they couldn’t take a biopsy, yes?”! I think I heard her say “we’ve caught it early”, so in my mind, with the family history and that experience, I am just thinking that maybe one some level I have just been waiting for this, the inevitable to happen…I really need the results now, but I really don’t want them…
What you are feeling is totally normal whilst waiting for results. We all know that feeling of replaying the appointment in our heads to try and remember what they said. The best thing, and absolutely not the easiest, is to try and put keep yourself distracted and occupied. If you think of it there is nothing you can do to change what the outcome might be, and that does not mean that it will necessarily turn out to be bc. However IF it does it sounds like it is very small and has been caught early, so your yearly mammograms are totally doing their job.
Do you have a date yet for your results and are you taking someone with you. The only reason I ask about going with someone is they are moral support but also they are another pair of ears, even when we are given good news wo do not always hear that because of our heightended state of anxiety.
Just try to take each day as it comes try not to think too far ahead. We are all here to help and support you in whatever way we can.
A pair of the virtual tough pants are winging their way to you now, fresh from the line, they have very deep pockets so that we can all get in there to hold your hands.
I’ve just been called by the hospital to say I have an appointment on wednesday morning to get my results!! Legs have gone a bit weak and suddenly lost my appetite!
I have found someone to take me though, just in case I fall apart.
Hi I’ve got through the moment, yes, that moment of being told I have breast cancer.
Good news is that it is small and lymph node sample they tested was clear.
It’s invasive ductal grade 2 so it will be a lumpectomy, sentinel nodes removal, and radiotherapy at a minimum. Blood test results will be through by this Friday and I dondon know yet whether I will have chemo or not.
Having genetic testing too.
I feel fine, I took a friend with me and didn’t crumble. Have told kids and they’re fine. So all good, and I feel so much better than waiting for the news. Xxx
Hi Wrightie,
Oh well, sorry you’ve joined the club, but as ever the prospect is worse that the reality. My diagnosis was similar to yours & all’s well now. Thankfully, it will now be dealt with.
ann x
Thank you all for your lovely comments. I guess I need to trot along over to newly diagnosed thread now…good luck to all the ladies still waiting over here, all I can say is that for me, prediagnosis was really hard and things seem a lot clearer and brighter now! Xxxxx
