Hi @shaw1 I’m so sorry you are feeling so depressed. I can’t imagine what it is like you for, I have a primary diagnosis and nearly 2 years on from finding a lump, but I would like you to feel supported.
I would encourage you to call the helpline on 0808 800 6000 the nurses are fabulous and just let you chat. As they don’t open until 9am maybe you could call Samaritans on 116 123 it’s a free phone number and they have people available 24/7. I recently did some training in another volunteer role and they said it’s for anyone who just needs to talk.
I hope you sharing on this forum has helped knowing there are people who care and want to listen. I believe I have signposted you on another thread for online support where you can meet others with secondary with a counsellor where you can share your feelings and fears.
BCN have one this week on the 27th.
Also Penny Brohn have an Advanced Vonnect group next Wednesday on 2nd April. The pink words will send you to the booking page should you wish to join.
Thinking of you. 