Hi folks,
Still hurtling down my astonishing voyage of discovery since finding this lump (2nd July!). Had wide local excision and removal of lymph nodes on 25th July and have to say that I am mighty relieved by yesterday’s results - scans clear; only 1 or 19 nodes affected; and it is oestrogen receptive (which presumably means they can chuck hormone treatment at it as well??).
The relief of having the huge well of lymphatic fluid drained from under my armpit was also considerable (Doh! hadn’t noticed this rather alarming bulge, though had wondered why I was feeling a bit uncomfortable . . . .!!!). Notice, however, that it’s filling up again.
Not all great news. Lump larger than anticipated (4.5cm), cancer in breast multifocal and large field changes (?) throughout breast. So it has to go. They had, actually, warned me about this possibility last week so I had adjusted to this. I’ve been focusing on the advantages of replacing my saggy FFs (breastfeeding the 5 kids for a total of 12 years has brought these down somewhere below my knees) with a natty pair of Es . . . Is this shallow???!!!
Anyway, the consultant said that the team had agreed to chemo, then mastectomy, then radiotherapy, then the reconstruction. I did ask about the relative benefits of just getting the mastectomy over and done with first (not least because I don’t think I can see an oncologist for 2-3 weeks). He is happy to do this on the 15th August but is chasing up to see if I can see an oncologist and get on chemo quicker - in which case I’ll do the latter.
I get the impression that his offer to do the surgery on the 15th was partly a response to what he thought was my psychological need to get the offending breast OFF! In fact, I’ve proved to be far more adaptable than anybody (myself included) expected and i just want to do what’s best clinically.
Does anybody have any experience of this question??? My husband’s concern is that if I have the mastectomy first (is this what the acronym mx means??), it may delay chemo for another few weeks. My concern is that I’ll feel too shattered after the chemo to have the op that quickly and that if the chemo doesn’t work I’ve got cancer in my breast that might still spread (though obviously not through my non existent lymph nodes).
I don’t particularly want to ‘shape’ this decision too much - I’m happy to rely on the clinicians to tell me what to do. I’m not being ‘little womanly’ about this. It’s just that if I change the course of action and things go wrong, it will be hard to live with myself (though i might not of course have to . . . .!!!). But they seem to be giving me a bit of a ‘choice’ here and I’m a bit confused.
Any advice from you lovely ladies? I think Lemongrove suggested some US research that pointed to chemo first??
Liviaxx