Goodness @bluebird14 that must have been so hard for you. 





. It shows how strong you are for getting through it all and surviving. 

Its definitely not easy. Its a weird toxic feeling, as you say Red Devil and mustard gas. 



. No wonder our hair falls out. But it hopefully will kill that cancer, plus the extra meds do help hold that serious sickness back 
. I feel marginally lurking nausea today, but Im eating light meals, which helps. And lots of protein.
I was up 3 times in the night needing wees 


But that helps drinking gallons to flush out the drugs. Im looking forward to the “cleaned” feeling in 7 days. It was a lovely feeling last time.
Stick with it, cry as much as you need. Its important to just let the emotions happen. They give us strength later. Im definitely a believer in not being the tough guy or the martyr. We are human and life can be tough. 







Sending you extra hugs. 



What a wonderful husband and daughter you have. Their love will get you through this 


@alannah172
I definitely think the hair loss is a hard side effect. I coped with the pixie and the extra 2 head shaves ok. But seeing it come out in patches, is not the best look in the mirror. 
. . Though using the lint roller has helped me not have the hair in my hands. And rolling it over my head is like a mini massage.
. I do it loads each time. Im glad its short and not long. Its made it easier. I then wear my pink primark bonnet that is very cosy and hairs dont stick to it. My wigs and hats are great. So I feel fine going out. At least the heat has stopped. So I can stay out for longer. 


.
Seriously brave ladies who are cold capping….
. There are many successes with it. I just didnt want to be in hospital for any longer than needed. 

. So im still happy with my choice. Im only in for2.5 hrs.
But like you, alannah172, I like having no chin hairs .

. It was seeing one of those just drop off my chin when I touched it
that made me realised the hair loss phase had started. 150000 hairs is a lot of hair and very distressing. But like my good male friend said jokingly….youre like me now, but at least yours will grow back. 







That was very true. He made me laugh..


Chemo brain has kicked more this time. I read Bank Holiday in my diary, so thought Oncology were working on Monday regardless of Bank Holiday. Then my friend mentioned going to the dentist monday.
. Curious…how could that be 
. Checked my diary and it was Republic of Ireland 


.
So I accept my brain is on half functioning. 
. So for all you lovely ladies out there …. It is not a Bank Holiday tomorrow for some if us, but it IS for others. Enjoy the day regardless, although Monday does look rather wet. 


probably a pamper day is a good call. 
@daffodil_dream goodness you are zooming through your treatments fast. 3rd one 
. Hope you are coping with the side effects, and you are not as woozy as your first one. 

You are one strong lady. 

. Thats a lot in one month. 
Thankyou for your kind words. 
Well done to all us 19 May ladies. And all the others across this Forum especially to @foxgem and @sam1204
Thank you for sharing all your experiences and compassion. You have shown us how the path pans out, and cared enough to pop over to say Hi. We will beat this. 








