message for DilysP
message for DilysP Hi Dilys
Sorry I was a bit lost in your last message so posting this one, I had the becker implant the one they keep filling, I think that is what it is called, the one they remove and replace after all the treatment has finished, mine has become a bit uncomfortable but I know that it will be replaced with a soft implant eventually so I can live with it for the time being…what ever you decide my love it has to be right for you…It is very very difficult to decide and at times I think have I done the right thing but only time will tell…
Just go with what you think is right for you, it is your body and you have to be comfortable with it as you have a lifetime of being in it…
lots of love as always
Lucy
Thank you Lucy Dear Lucy
Thank you so much for getting back to me. Yes I am choosing the Becker, the one that they fill and then deflate. It is so hard isn’t it? Could spend the rest of your life avoiding such a choice. When I was there yesterday they suddenly started talking about eventual surgery on the intact breast which floored me completely! Just want it to be finished really.
Anyway stay in touch. When I have a date I will let you know. Can’t be too long now. I just wish you so much love and thanks for being there in support. I hope all is going well for you.
Love and best wishes
Dilys
Hi Dilys
Yes it drives you made at times trying to make a decision and then to be floored again…It has been 7 months since I started on this journey nearly and no end in sight yet, I can’t believe how quickly time has passed since I was first diagnosed…you just think you are on the right road and then something else comes along…to decide about
mine is chemo my veins are closing down and they may want to put one of those lines in I dont want it so off we go again…
It isnt and hasnt been easy and I make no bones about that ,but what can you do Dilys, like you say you can go on for ever and still assume at the end of it have you made the right or wrong choice…last week I had a feirce screaming crying fit, I was so fed up with it all, but I am still trying to smile…rollercoaster isnt the word
best wishes my love and take care please keep in touch
much love as always
Lucy
Oh Lucy! Dear Lucy
Oh love, how awful for you. I had no idea. You are so, so brave. Chemo is my very worst fear - noone has suggested that it is anything less than awful. My heart goes out to you. Last week they did a stamp? punch? test on me thinking it had spread - had it done so it would have been chemo. Thank god it was negative. But of course you never know what is coming next in this particular fairground ride! I am still waiting for a hospital date.
Keep strong, and we will be there together.
Much love
Dilys
Hi Dilys
I am sorry that you had a scare last week and very glad it was good news…Chemo was my worst nightmare, but i am facing it head on and it isnt going to beat me…it makes me feel very ill but at least it is hopefully doing good…
I hope you get your date soon, I found it’s the waiting that is the worst, you can’t move on or have closure all the time you are in limbo…
We will get through it Dilys, just stay positive, look forward and not back, we can’t change what has happened and just take each day as it comes, its hard but we will get there…
much love Lucy
For dear Lucy Dear Lucy
I so feel for you. You are so very brave. And of course there is no choice really is there? No news today about a new date for me - I jump every time the phone rings! But it will pass. Things do.
Thank you so very much for staying in touch, and I send you strength.
Much love
Dilys
Hi Dilys
thank you for sending strength, I will do the same in return…
I will be glad when we can say oh my god did we really do all that and look back and say yes we did…and we are still here to prove it.
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