After feeling more and more hellish for ages it’s suddenly dawned on me that I’m menopausal. I was just starting to get a few hot flushes when I was hit by the cancer diagnosis and on to the roller-coaster…couldn’t tolerate tamoxifen cos it made me feel awful so I’m not on anything. i feel as if i went into cancer a fairly young woman and have come out the other side about ten years older, have passed the big 5-0 in the middle of it all. some days i feel fine, and other days i feel absolutely hellish, very low mood, headaches etc. i thought i was depressed but then it dawned on me that this feels exactly like when i was in my teens and the whole hormone thing kicks in and you don’t understand what it is. mostly my life is fine, i’ve had some stress but who doesn’t? i don’t really want to take antidepressants, what have other people found helpful?