I have posted this for new user Sarah
Emma, Moderator
Hi, i was diganosed with a grade 2 breast cancer yesterday after being given the all clear last week!. Feel reaaly low, cant sleep, not eating and full of anxiety, Dr says that lump is small and my cancer is curable but i am finding it hard to be positive right now, worried about the kids, husband etc and what the future holds, is this normal
Hi Emma
Im so sorry you have joined us but you really have come to the right place for advise, to have a moan or just need a cyber hug, if you have a quesion then there is someone usually here that can answer it through experience.
There are no rules on how your reacting, some are so shocked they cant cry, others cry, others act normal. Its hard to be positive at the moment but that will change. If the lump is good then great i had a right monster in me that through chemo shrank to nothing and when you do start treatment you have to get tough and say “right im going to beat this bugger, ive got kids and a husband” and really you do come out of yourself and you really feel more positive through each step, before you know it you’ll be getting the all clear.
Keep posting and take care of yourself
Tracey
xxx
Hi Sarah
Your fears and worries are normal and the fact that you find it hard to be positive. I think everyone goes through this and still do during treatment. I was dx on 16 July and unfortunately 10 days later after my scans was told it had already spread to my liver. My whole world fell apart at the seams and even now I am terrified and some days (like today) have been spent crying lots. I am 39 with a 3 yr old and a 9 month old, and am so worried about what the future holds for me and for them and my hubby!
As your doc has said it is curable try to keep that in your mind always, and think positive as much as you can, it will be hard, but you can do it. Once your treatment starts you will start to feel more positive too, as you then know you are fighting back with everything you can. Do you know what you are having done - op, chemo? I had my first chemo 2 weeks ago and my 2nd next Wednesday and it was OK, not something I want to do, but was not as bad as feared.
I lost my appetite for 2 weeks after my diagnosis and during the wait to start treatment but pretty much back to normal eating wise. Just try to carry on as best you can.
You will get so much support from everyone on this forum and it will help you.
Take care and keep in touch
Love
Dawn
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Reply from new user Sarah,
thanks ladies
i feel a bit calmer now, i am having an MRI on friday as my mamogram did not show anything and the lump will be removed on the 10th sept and then the treatment will be decided after that - dr says possibly radiotherapy and hormone treatment
sarah x
No problem Sarah,
just post any time with anything, we all do and some one is always there to support you and hopefully lift your spirits.
I had an MRI on wednesday and hopefully get the results tomorrow, its always the waiting that gets to you.
Good luck and keep posting.
Tracey
xx
Hi Sarah, what an awful time for you already, to be full of hope then have it dashed like that! you have every right to feel how you do, but as others have said, your dr has said its curable, you need to believe that, its not easy, but its ok to cry, and its really good to talk, but if your anything like me (bit of a private person in outer-internet life) then its not always easy to just let go of the emotions. the support helpline on here is excellent and the “ask the nurse”, plus, don’t forget, your bc nurse is there for you as well. i’ve had great help and advice on here, met some fantastic people, don’t ever feel silly about anything that is worrying you, your not alone
lots of love
Alison xxxxxxx
Hi Sarah,
I was exactly where you are now 2 months ago, you feel like the world has ended! I was devastated, for my husband and my children too. Like you mine was small and grade 2. The good news was that after lumpectomy there were no lymph nodes involved. I’m having radiotherapy at the moment (1st one today) and i’ve been on tamoxifen for a month. I remember very clearly how it feels when you are first told but 2 months on i am much more positive. You will be too when you know what is the plan for you.
Take care, lots of love Julie X
Hi Sarah. How horrible to be told you are clear, and then told you have bc. That is awful. I was dx with bc last week and have been through every emotion. It changes from minute to minute sometimes. I am really bad tempered with my poor mum, the next minute I am thinking “This is too much to cope with - I can’t possibly keep everything else on track and deal with bc, my head is going to explode…”, the next minute I am calm and optimistic, the next minute I think I must be in a dream and this can’t possibly be happening, and so it goes on. I do believe my emotions will become easier to cope with as time goes on, as this is what other girls on the site have experienced.
Good luck to you, and my thoughts are with you.
Emma
xxx
Hi Sarah
Welcome to the site, where you’ll find lots of support and advice from the lovely ladies on here.
I was diagnosed on 4th April, at the age of 41 with two girls 14 and 10, and yes, it was a completely devastating shock for all of us. I never thought I’d stop crying in those early days, but I can promise you, it does get better. The first fortnight was the worst, from diagnosis, scan after scan, etc. My MRI scan measured my lump to be 5.2cm x 2.5 so I’m having chemo first, followed by mastectomy, rads and herceptin. I’m pleased to say, I’ve got my last chemo next week, and a recent MRI showed that the tumour has definitely shrunk, so we’re getting there !
You will be going through a whole range of emotions right now, and they’re all perfectly normal (I swear I was the Anti-Christ at one stage !), but eventually you reach a point where you do become accepting of it almost, and good days outweigh the bad.
I’m lucky to have the support of a wonderful husband, and friends, and maintaining my sense of humour (somehow!) is getting me through. I would never have believed 4 months ago that I would be feeling as positive as I do now.
Sending you lots of love, a big hug, and remember we’re all here for you.
Love Julie xx