Need help getting my head around surgery results

Need some perspective plse . After my snb and wle 2 wks ago which I sailed thru , went back for results today feeling v v nervous . Consultant advised good news as not in lymph nodes / sigh of relief then he went on to say one margin too small therefore need further op to shave off tiny bit more . I don’t mind that but I have got small bust so worried how it will look 2nd time around . Finally it was grade 3 not grade 2 so strong chance of chemo now . I know I shud feel happy it’s not spread but now it feels like it’s going to drag on til at least April next year til treatment complete and I am dreading dreading dreading losing my long mane of hair and having chemo . I guess I am 'lucky ’ I just don’t feel it just feel like I want to run or drive somewhere very fast and escape ( in my head at least ) !!

Hi

Sorry to hear about you second op but you are in good hands, I’m having a mastectomy on the 20.08.14 and later having recon.
My worst fear is losing my hair if I need chemo, it is down to my bottom but I’m asking for a cold cap to see if it works. If it doesn’t then I’m going to have a couple of wigs and have some fun.
Seems weird worrying about our hair instead of looking after the cancer, your emotions are normal but give CBC a call and have a good old chat.
Best wishes for your next part of this awful process
Lynne x

Hi Lynne thanks for replying . I feel like my long hair is a part of my identity don’t you ? It’s not just vanity it is just me ! I’m 51 but look younger as I dye my hair so when it grows back I will be grey as well ! I will save a fortune on hair dye tho ! V best wishes for your surgery and a speedy recovery from that stage xx

Hi Debtex,
I was in the same position as you, after first surgery went back to be told no nodes involved (phew) but he didn’t get clear margins… At the time it felt like I had been told all over again I had cancer. The second op was totally fine, I was a day case, it’s not such a big op and you won’t feel the same.
As it happens i had to go on for a third as he still didn’t get the margins. Only now is my swelling going down and I’m pretty upset at the sight of my boob…BUT for me the alternate of a masectomy would have been much worse. I plan to have it fixed once I am allowed!
I’ve declined chemo so the hair thing is fortunately not going to be an issue.
Wish you all th best, take care x

Thanks for you comments Lynne and Mel and Nscooby . Feel a bit brighter today but still like my world is now spinning on another axis .at least it will be cooler when’s chemo starts so I can wear hats and going to see about eyebrow and eyeliner semi perm tattoos . Have a good weekend Deb xx

Glad you’re feeling a little bit better, I’m 58 and yep those damn grey hairs will come though but try and look further on and you’ll come through just fine.
I know what you mean about on another axis, sometimes feel like I’m not the same person since being diagnosed. Mel66 seems to be in control and I agree that we need to get the wigs sorted, worth a try to see how different styles will look. I’m definitely staying with long hair and gonna go lighter, but Mell66 I’m not going blonde my skin is more olive tone.
Have a great positive weekend
Lynne x