I’m feeling pretty anxious about my pet scan tomorrow and scared about what else they may find. Apart from the lump in the breast and the swollen lymph node I’m feeling pretty fit and healthy, however all I keep thinking about are various ‘what ifs’. Everyone else on here seems to be having mri scans and it makes me worry as to why I’m having a different one. The consultant said it was standard treatment and my breast nurse said that I wasn’t having anything special take place, but I can’t help but worry about what else they may find and that they know something that they don’t want to tell me. Last week the consultant had a good feel above and below my collarbone and said he couldn’t feel anything, but what if he wasn’t telling me something? It’s the not having control that I can’t cope with and the not knowing about what’s going to happen next. I suppose I just want some reassurance and I just feel so scared by it all. Sissy xx
I think what you are feeling is entirely natural. I am extremely anxious about my MRI results as the surgeon won’t operate until he gets them. I keep thinking he is hiding something from me and thinks there is something worse going on! Also what if it finds the cancer is far worse than they thought? This whole thing messes with your mind and even though I think of myself as a strong positive person this is incredibly difficult. I feel fit and well too so it seems unbelievable that this is happening. Good luck with your scan today. I keep thinking that every time I go to the hospital or have a test it’s another step closer to the end of this nightmare. Be thinking of you. Claire xxxxx
I found the doctors are always very honest and up front, I’m sure they won’t be keeping anything from you. Daft as it may seem, I envy you getting the scan - at least you will know the full picture. My hospital don’t do any scans unless there are symptoms, so I am always wondering IF it has spread. Any little twinge in my body is immediately ‘cancer’. At least you will know (as I’m sure will be the case) for sure they yours hasn’t spread. Lots of love and hugs, you will be fine. Xxxxxx
Hi ladies, the waiting Is just awful and although i didn’t have any scans I went through all the thoughts and emotions you both describe while waiting on results of biopsy and lumpectomy, its sheer hell! The out of control feeling is scary, I’m a problem solver and can deal with anything as long as I have all the facts and can set about finding a solution but with this you are in limbo for so long it’s impossible to get to grips with it until you have more knowledge, hang in there girls, you must be sick of hearing things get better but they really do! Xx Jo
Fingers crossed for you today Sissy x
Claire, gave they said yet when you’re going to get your mri results? Sissy xx
I’ve got my next appointment Tuesday afternoon with Mr C, apparently the pet scan results will be available by then as they don’t take as long to be assessed. I just hope this its all localised to my right breast and under arm lymph and not rampaging all over as that’s what I’m imagining in my head! I know I have to have chemo i think they don’t know at the moment of it will be before surgery. If I have got to have it first I’d rather just get on with it. Hopefully they’ll be able to get your ultrasound and biopsy sorted for early this week. Are your work okay with you having last minute time off? Xx
Well it’s good that the appointment has come through quickly, it may be that they can rush the results through ready for Thursday’s mdt meeting. I know what you mean about the worrying about what they are or aren’t saying. Everytime I have a conversation with one of them I end up going over it in my head trying to see if there is any hidden meaning! I’m not back st work until Tuesday night so I’m enjoying my time off as much as I can. My OH makes me go out with him at least once a day, had lunch at Hythe bay fish on Dover seafront today then a walk along the pier after. Have you something nice planned for the weekend? Xx