Hi all, this is my story so far,
just over 2 1/2 weeks ago i thought i felt a little lump in my left breast but after trying to find it again and being unable to i thought no more about it that was until last thursday evening when i felt it again but this time it had doubled in size, i quickly became anxious and went to the lady doctor last friday morning, her reactions were not very convincing that it was going to be ok, she straight away suspected it was something to worry about and booked me in within the 2 week timescale, i go to the linda mc cartney centre next thursday.
Everyone keeps telling me theres no point in worrying about it until i know for sure, this i understand and i know they are right but i find myself just laying wide awake of a night just crying uncontralably, i am driving myself insane 
has anyone else been the same while waiting for their 1st appointments?
Hi Shellyjm,
I am in the same boat as you, I think my post is below yours so have a read to see that how your feeling is exactly how I’m feeling and we can’t both be the only ones!
I think the key message I’m getting is that this whole process is a waiting game, it is something that we can’t currently control and we just have to put our faith in the timescales that have been set by people in a better authority than ourselves.
That said, my husband took me and my girls for a surpirse trip to Disneyland last weekend and I did manage to forget and managed to have a lovely time; however on the Eurostar home I burst into tears knowing that the week ahead that I am now facing is dragging on and on. I’m referring to it as my ‘Disney comedown’ to people at work who see me looking a bit glum at my desk!
I think, if possible, try and get out and plan to do things between now and your appointment to keep your focus on something else and try to remember that you aren’t alone in this.
Surreymum
Hi Shelly and welcome to the BCC forums
I am sure your fellow users will undestand how you are feeling and in addition to the support you will soon have here please feel free to call our helpliners to talk through your concerns. Lines are open 9-5 weekdays and 10-2 Saturdays on 0808 800 6000.
You may find the following information link to the BCC ‘Worried about breast cancer’ page useful:
Take care
Lucy
Hi Shellyjm,
The two week referral time is standard policy for all new breast lumps. It does not mean your GP thinks it is cancerous - no one can tell you this just by feel. Eight or nine out of all referrals will turn out not to be cancer, so although I know it is easier said than done, please try not to panic.
The waiting time is truly awful. It does help to try and keep busy - plan a few nice things to fill the evenings and treat yourself.
I would advise against too much googling. A lot of information is really scarey, and/or out of date. If you are tempted to, stick to this site, or Macmillan or Cancer Research UK. These are reliable and accurate sources of information.
As Lucy BCC suggests, it may be an idea to ring the helpline. The nurses there are so helpful and have calmed me and reassured me on several occasions.
Let us know how you get on next Thursday.
Thank you ladies, i am trying really hard to stay clear of google! i will let you know how i get on, so glad i found this page as its great to read that other people are going through the same, just hope its a good outcome for everyone x
Hi Shelly,
I was exactly the same! You are not alone in this. I found that self-help books and CDs really helped. I also found that talking to someone at Breast Cancer Care was relaxing too. Try to pamper yourself as much as possible.
All the best
I am in same situation - found painless lumps mid March, appointment with clinic is scheduled for next week (after having been told I’d be seen within a fortnight). I have been through whole process, from googling terrifying sites, losing sleep, choosing the wigs, picking the words with which to share bad news with family and friends etc. But I have also found some positives - those that do know have been supportive, this website is full of inspirational people and invaluable information and I’ve taken steps to reduce my workload and improve my quality of life which I probably wouldn’t have got round to without being faced with a reminder of my own mortality.
Now that the wait has gone on so long, the fear has lessened and the whole situation has moved more to the back of my mind. Instead of being convinced I’ll be the unlucky one, I’m beginning to think that the symptoms might not be that sinister and I’ll turn out to be a time-waster - from one extreme to the other… Either way, it shouldn’t be too long 'til I find out whether my body needs chemo or champagne 
Best of luck to everyone else who is also in limbo, and especially to those who’re undergoing treatment. xx
Thanks everyone and marge44 i can relate to what you have said, my appointment is on thursday and i am no longer scared, ive just decided what will be will be and i’ll deal with it as and when the need arises 
good luck to you all also, i’m thinking of you and praying for the best outcome for us all x
Hi Shellyjm,
Just wanted to wish you all the best for tomorrow’s appointment. Fingers crossed it will be a good outcome and you can put all the stress behind you. (If the news isn’t so good there will be loads of support for you on this site, and from the BCC nurses).
Let us know how you get on. Thinking of you and everyone else going through the awful waiting time,
XX
Good luck Shelly jm x
hi shelly
just to say hi and good luck for tommorow, let us know what happens.
angie xx
thankyou sooo much, all your support means so much, i’m feeling scared now but confident it will be a good outcome, the last wekk or 2 has been made easier reading the posts on here, cyber hugs to you all xx
Good luck for today Shelly - I will keep my fingers crossed for you xx
hi ladies it didnt go aswell as i had hoped for, although strangely enough the lump i went with turned out to be bruising of some kind, they discovered an area of concern in my right breast so had 3 mammograms, a scan, a FNA in left breast lump and had a core biopsy (i think thats what it was called) taken from a cluster of about 7 cells from the right breast, they took 14 samples.
so now with very sore and tender breasts i have another week to wait for the results xx
Hi Shellyjm
Really sorry to hear this news, and that you now have another week to wait. I know how slowly time seems to go when you are in this situation.
I hope you are getting lots of support from friends and family. It sounds as though you’ve had the full battery of tests today so make sure you let yourself be looked after for the next few days, and have a few little treats and lots of hugs. (But gentle ones - it can be bit tender for a while after these tests).
Keep posting if you need support - do you get the results a week today?
XX
Hi Shelly
I am so to hear your news. Just for information, a few days after the core biopsy I experienced sharp shooting pains in the breast. This apparently is normal, so don’t be alarmed if that happens to you. You will be a little sore for a few days and then the bruising will appear.
Try to keep yourself as busy as possible - I drove myself nuts waiting for the results. It’s a horrible time. I’ve recently re-discovered solitaire and it’s keeping my mind active while I await my op.
Good luck for next week and please do let us know how you get on. Keep coming to the forum, even if it is just for a rant or some advise. I also called the helpline a couple of times and found it very useful just to get a few things off my chest (pardon the pun lol).
Take care
Martha xx
HI shelly I am also sorry to hear what you have been through today. Its weird how you go with one breast concern and then the other is the more of a problem. Thank goodness they investigate other breast too. I am thinking of you and as others have said get lots of support and keep busy hun.take care
love Emma x
HI shelly I am also sorry to hear what you have been through today. Its weird how you go with one breast concern and then the other is the more of a problem. Thank goodness they investigate other breast too. I am thinking of you and as others have said get lots of support and keep busy hun.take care
love Emma x
Hi Shelly
After my original biopsies, 5 from 2 areas I wore a good supportive bra to bed for the first couple of nights and got less bruising than they suggested I would and didn’t feel too sore so might be worth a try.
As others have said, try to keep busy over the next week and keep thoughts of the results pushed to the back of your mind, don’t worry about things you don’t know about! Easy to say I know but worth trying!
Kate
x
Hi Shelly,
How are you? I hope the soreness has improved.
I think you said you were getting your biopsy results about now.It’s a horrible position to be in, but once you know what you are dealing with, and what treatment may be needed, it really does get a bit easier to cope.
Sending you my best wishes.
X