Thank you xx
My parents are 70 miles away. Im with them now as the hospital im going to is near Liverpool which isn’t far from them. On top of all this, my grandad has end of life dementia and my mum is being investigated for skin cancer. Great timing !
I’ve just had a small portion of lasagne, will have a bath later but I’m trying not to focus on my breasts at all until Tuesday. It just scares me .
My boyfriend also isn’t too worried. I think he keeps forgetting too. He’s more interested in football right now.
I’ve had a look at that link, thanks. My lump doesn’t move which is very worrying. It does feel quite rubbery though. Who knows. Ugh, panic.
It’s good you have a supportive boss. I dont think my boss believes me because I’ve recently had time off with my Grandad being so ill.
I hope you have a chilled out evening , I’d like a glass of wine but it’d be a bad idea on my no food stomach ! Xx
Sounds like you’ve got a lot on your plate at the moment. My husband is more interested in the football at the moment as well! I’m a bit worried about tomorrow because he’s in Leeds for work so I’m going to be alone all night. It’s when I’m alone I think about it more. I reckon I’ll just try and sleep. At least tomorrow I should know when my appointment is and yours will be nearly here! Xx
Have you told any other family/friends? I’ve told a couple of friends but they’ve gone pretty silent on me since I told them really. They don’t know what to say.
It’s a shame because in times like these you need your friends the most.
My mum is very worried and looks pale with worry. I feel so awful for her too.
iF I have to have a biopsy I’m going to be in bits, can’t imagine going to work with waiting for those results.
Sorry to be miserable! This is the only place I can mope . Hope you manage to get a good nights sleep xx
That’s ok. I haven’t told anyone else. Just my boss and my husband. There’s no way I would tell my mum, she would freak out and make me feel worse and with my friends I’m not sure how I would even bring it up so I haven’t told them.
Morning ladies. I just called to reschedule my appointment and mine is now tomorrow at 10:45am. So big day for me tomorrow as well! I’m glad it’s soon. I can’t wait much longer. My husband is away tomorrow though so I might have to go on my own. I’m considering telling a friend but they’ve all got jobs and kids so probably won’t be able to come. Not sure what to do. Is anyone else’s going on their own?
My husband has just cancelled his work thing so he can come with me now. My boss told me she will expect me in by about lunchtime as my appointment is at 10:45am. Does this sound realistic? It will take about an hour to get there as well!
My apt is at 10.40 tomorrow , so we’ll be at these clinics at the same time. That’s great you managed to get in earlier. Good news that your husband is going with you. My mum is coming with me but I can tell she’s worried sick. I’d expect you to be there for about 3 hours only from what other people have said about these clinics, as there’s a bit of waiting around and stuff. I have no idea what will happen with me tomorrow but I wish you loads and loads of luck and please keep us informed xx
Thanks Carrie, keep me informed about your appointment as well. I’m very nervous now 
Me too. I woke up feeling so, so sick so I dread how I’ll feel tomorrow morning! I think I’ve been reading too much many negative stories so the anxiety has risen beyond what i can cope with .
I’m going to try some meditation tonight , and some breathing exercises X
That’s a good idea. I’ll be watching the England match as I’m into the football a bit so that should distract me. I just want to move on from this. Im feeling like I can’t look forward to my holiday or anything at the moment. Is it true that you don’t get a mammogram if you’re under 40? So I guess we would probably get an ultrasound and then the biopsy if they find anything suspicious on that?
I think they will do an ultrasound on women our age. I’m dreading the biopsy, I can’t tell you how scared I am.
Yes I’ll be watching England too, I just won’t be able to enjoy it as much as I normally would
We have a trip to London booked for next week! Doubt that will be happening now. I just can’t think positively right now , I must have to live each day with one day at a time. Xx
I have a needle phobia but I think I won’t even be thinking about it tomorrow. I think I’ll just switch off.
I’m trying to think of nice things like going for lunch after and tomorrow night we could both be celebrating. Not much longer to wait now xx
Thank you for being upbeat , it really means a lot. Are you managing to eat ok? I’m hoping I’ll manage a banana in the morning and I’ll take some water with me xx
Yeah I’m eating ok but just tired and drained.
I also have PCOS and been reading about a connection between that and fibrocystic breasts (not sure if I spelt that correctly!) so I’m thinking and hoping mine is also something to do with hormones. I’ll probably try and have some toast in the morning. I’ll be leaving about 9am xx
I would say you need to allow at least two hours at a one stop clinic. Some places do mammograms on younger breasts but I think they’re less reliable as younger breasts have denser tissue. You’ll definitely have an ultrasound though which is more reliable and they’ll be able to see you lymph nodes too. Good luck ladies. Let us know how you get on xx
I notice your comments regarding no pain is more worrisome. Why? I only get pain now and then, not there all the time.
Good luck tomorrow doofers. Apparantly cancerous lumps don’t cause pain normally. It’s another thing I am worried about. I am so, so scared about my apt tomorrow and have decided it’s going to be the worst possible outcome. I’m physically shaking with fear, so I can’t imagine what I’ll be like in the morning. Plus my apt is private so anything I want doing, I’ll have to pay for. I just couldn’t wait another 9 days for the NHS appointment. I’ll get any treatment on NHS as I have no money after this. My breast feels so sensitive but I have no idea if that’s from prodding and poking. Xx
Thanks for your comments everyone. I’ve got a pounding headache at the moment I’ll definitely be back tomorrow with news and hope to speak to you all then. Good luck ladies xxx
Just left the hospital. Mine was a cyst, that the consultant drained for me. I still need a scan, but will refer back to NHS for that (I went private for this due to my anxiety)
This is just to reassure some of you ladies out there with lumps that it isn’t always something serious. My lump didn’t move, was hard, and was discreet. I had convinced myself it was something very advanced. It has now gone.
Please look after yourself, your boobies, and do those checks, but please don’t automatically think the worst if you find something, like I did! Xx
That’s great Carrie, I’m so relieved and pleased for you! I hope you are feeling a lot better now.
I’m still in the waiting room, I’ve been here for over an hour now! I have no idea how long this will take and they said they couldn’t tell me