Hi everyone,
I hope you don’t mind me posting on here as I don’t live in the UK at the moment. I found a lump in my left breast three weeks ago and made an appointment to see my GP. He then sent me to have a mammogram followed by a ultrasound. I got the results there and then and there were two lumps. I was then told I had to make an appointment to see a surgeon. I saw the surgeon three days after finding the lumps and he gave me a choice of four different kinds of surgery I could have. Well I made my decision and I had surgery last Thursday, he removed both the lumps and some clear tissue also. It has all happened so fast that I haven’t had time to get my head round it. I am now waiting for the biopsy results which are due back towards the end of this week. I am feeling very up and down, scared, angry, anxious, can’t sleep very well and fearing the worst. I have been reading some of your posts and you are very brave, just hope that I can be the same. Keep telling myself that I will be fine and cope if its bad news, but that feeling doesn’t last long and I am back down rock bottom. This waiting part is awful and very hard to deal with. Thanks for listening to me.
Bridget x
Hi Bridget,
Welcome to the BCC Discussion Forums. I just wanted to reassure you that quite a few of your fellow forum users are also posting from overseas so that’s not a problem at all.
With best wishes,
Anna, BCC Facilitator
Hi Bridget
Welcome: I well remember what you are feeling now after the shock and speed of everything. If its any consolation, Im a year diagnosed on 6th Oct and if you had asked me where Id be in terms of thinking a year later, Id have said a very bleak place. But here I am, surgery over, treatment plan in the past and keeping well, I wouldnt have beleived you.
As youve recognised, the waiting is really the worst part-not knowing awful. You will, whatever the outcome of the test results, feel ‘better’ once you know.
Its easy sometimes for those of us who are through it to forget the process, but we do completly understand the scary place you are just now and I for one send you my very best wishes for the results. I hope you have folk around you for support if you are away from your family in this country, but know that everyone who reads your story will be routin for you.
Any questions, pop back and ask away.
Love Cathie
Hi. I really understand totally how you feel. I’ve not had my biopsy yet (got to have that on Tuesday) and I was really scared about having the biopsy. Now, the biopsy doesn’t bother me at all, its the results i am scared of and the waiting time in between. Wouldn’t it be so much better if they could do the biopsy and tell you the results while you were there! It really does seem reading all the other posts and from all the lovely replies that i had, that the waiting time for the results is the worse. Being on this forum though has made me realise that i am not alone in feeling like i do and there are a lots and lots of other women out there waiting those agonising days for results. I totally understand when you say that sometimes you feel positive and then other times you are like at rock bottom. I feel exactly like that.At the moment, i really feel like i am living somebody else’s life and its all dreamlike. Nothing feels like it did before. Anyway, lets both of us try to stay positive and know that there are wonderful people out there to support us and give us advice no matter what the outcome. I wish you all the best and i hope everything turns out ok. I will be thinking of you. lots of love, Debra.
Hi
Many thanks for the replies, it makes you feel a lot better when you know that people care and understand what you are feeling and going through. I shall get my results on Wednesday morning and I am finding it very hard to get a grip of myself, feel so much worse than I did when I waiting for surgery last Thursday. I know I have to face it but it sure is vary hard at the moment
Debbie I hope all goes well with your biopsy and I shall be thinking of you and wishing you well. Like you say we have to be strong and get through this, we have no other choice. We will have lots of support from everyone who have already been down this road on this forum.
Take care
Bridgetx