HI I am so worried and stressed I have two tumours one is 8mm in my right breast and the other is 25mm and it is in my right armpit the consultant has told me that he still does not know witch of these is the primary because of the position of the 25mm tumour it seems that it might of already spread to my lymph nodes and they might be stuck together I know that this is not good I have to go for a bone scan today 14th oct and a ct scan on the 17th I see my consultant on the 18th for my results I am teriffied that this horrible discease has already spread to my brain I am 58yrs old and have a husband 2 daughters and 5 grandaughters and for the first time in my adult live I feel absoloutally helpless my whole world has been turned upside down everythins seems sureal and every minute seems like an hour I am normally the strong one but I just feel like I want to roll up into a ball how do you cope with this terrible dicease. Groovy Nan this what my 12yr old grandaughter calls me
Dear Groovynan,
Even though it’s hard please try and take a deep breath and calm down. I felt the same as you when I was diagnosed (I was even planning my funeral). However that was TWELVE years ago now. Admittedly I did have a local recurrence SEVEN years ago but I’m as fit as a fiddle now. My cancer had spread to 5 lymph nodes so I had to have chemo but it wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be (& treatments have moved on so much since then). I know you are in a very dark place at the moment but hold tight and you will get through this. I had an 8 year old daughter at the time & she got me through it & I’m sure you will find the same with your grandchildren. A friend once said to me if you’re going to get cancer get breast cancer as it’s the most easily treated. Let the doctors do their job and take all the support you can get. Meanwhile I will hold you in my thoughts. Keep strong. Real life WILL resume soon.
Love lbx157
Hi Groovy nan
Welcome to the Breast Cancer Care discussion forums, you’ve come to the right place for some good support as the users of these forums have a wealth of knowledge and experience between them.
To try and help you a little more I have put for you below links to some of BCC’s publications you may find helpful. Also if you need a good listening ear, the helpline staff are here to support you through this. Calls to the helpline are free, as are all BCC’s publications.
Resource pack:
www2.breastcancercare.org.uk/publications/diagnosed-breast-cancer/resource-pack-primary-early-breast-cancer-bcc145
Hope these help. Take care,
Jo, Facilitator
Hi Groovynan
Sorry you find yourself here, you will find lots of information and experiences that others have been through. I was diagnosed on 6 October with quite a large tumour in my right breast, I had bone scan, ct scan, sentinal lymph node removed and 1 other node. I worried myself stupid that the cancer was everywhere, I even wrote my Will and planned my funeral the day before my general anaethetic for the SLNB LoL. My mind went into over-drive imagining all sorts of horrendous things.
I will be starting chemo this week to shrink the tumour, then mastectomy, then radiation, then reconstruction. All my scans and lymphys were clear, even if you have cancerous cells elsewhere the chemo and rads can target those areas. You will find that as the days and weeks start to pass you will learn to live with the diagnosis, and you will feel like you are on an emotional roller coaster, but it does get easier, especially when you know more about your treatment plan.
Try not to stress, it may feel like the end of your world, but it really isn’t, it’s a change to your life, but things will return to normal in due course.
There are so many people on this forum who are going through exactly the same emotions and treatments, it really is a good place to be for support and to ease your mind.
Best wishes,
Daysie x
Hi groovynan,
Sorry ur here but welcome. I also have cancer in my lymph nodes which they found from the scan at my original diagnosis on 8th Oct , I also have 2 tumours in my breast, or should I say had as I had a mastectomy and node clearance last week. Diagnosis is the most awful point to be at, I’m a usually a control freak and felt like I was in free fall with all certainty snatched away and a constant sick feeling in the pit of my stomach but although u might not believe it, it does get easier. U just learn to carry on. Take wat ever support is offered by those around u, I have 3 children, 20, 16 and 5, and know I have to keep fighting for there sake. My hospital seems remarkably off the ball in terms of ct scans etc so I still don’t know if it’s precedence but so at least in that u will soon have more info than me! u r allowed to have days wen all u want to do is cry, or shout, or feel helpless and want to get off the roller coaster but however u feel there is always someone on here going through the same thing. We.see all here for each other and for u too now,
Be kind to urself
Herbi x