As alot of you know my mum was diagnosed with bc five weeks ago, and I have been so worried and concerned about her. A few days after her diagnosis I was concerned myself about a strange feeling in my right breast. Saw my gp and she said it was nothing. I was still worried about it and went to see the emergency doctor tonight. Turns out there is something there. She says it is not a lump but there feels almost like a worm like thing under in my brest ie it moves. She doesn’t mean there is a worm, but she means thats what it feels like. She said I should get it checked out. First I am absolutely furious that my doctor has just treated me with such indifference, thinking I am overreacting because of my mum and secondly I am petrafied that I have cancer. I am supposed to be going away on Friday for a long weekend abroad with my hubby, I really dont feel like it now.
Would be nice to hear from anyone tonight as I feel so distraught and feel I can’t take much more.
I’m sure some of your fellow forum users will be along shortly to offer you support. I’m sure you know, but you are very welcome to phone the helpline tomorrow and have a chat with one of the nurses there about your concerns. The lines are open at 9am tomorrow the number is 0808 800 6000
What an awful position to be in! I have been reading your very caring posts about your Mum and can’t believe that you are now having to go through this. Life is a real b… sometimes. Of course, as you know, it might not be anything, but now you have all the waiting, which is so hard, until you know for sure. I can understand you not wanting to go away, because this thing will be on your mind the whole time; what does your husband think about this? There is nothing really I can say that will help, but just know that I am thinking about you.
hey jules - stay cool… it may be a slippery mouse -entirely benign - it’s on info on this site. don’t panic - they are doing right stuff with u, checking out is good.
Thanks ladies, I just feel so angry and upset and keep thinking why why why. I am finding dealing with the emotions of my mum so hard as I love her so much and now to find out that I have to got the worry of whether I have the same horrible disease.
Gwyn my husband is very supportive and he is telling me not to worry, but it is easier said than done. And just to add to this my daughter has severe depression and she has just come in sobbing her heart out. Life really really is sh**.
I am crying my eyes out tonight, I really am at breaking point. I feel totally numb, but I know that tomorrow it will hit me like a train. My sister says I should ring up the private hospital and arrange a mammogram tomorrow and that I should get it tomorrow as I am paying for it. I don’t know if they will see me so quickly.
I’m so sorry to hear about what you are going through. Just so you know, when I found my lump I went straight to my GP on the Monday and then received an appointment at the hospital that Friday. I didn’t want to wait that long so arranged to see a consultant privately (inc ultrasound) on the Wednesday so in answer to your question above, you can get this arranged very quickly.
I feel tonight, like I am being fired at in all directions and I can’t avoid all the bullets, that is a really good way of summing up exactly how I am feeling.
I think if it was one thing Katy, I would be ok, but my daughter is only 19 and is under the doctor and is on anti depressants, my mum is being treated for breast cancer, and now I have something abnormal in my breast. I am an saturation point, don’t really know how much more I can hold on before I totally loose the plot.
I am sorry everyone for going on, but I feel like I am being crushed tonight by everything. Watching my daughter is destroying me knowing I can’t take her pain or depression away.
It was bad enough having to post on here for my poor mum, but the reality that I could be posting on here for myself is pretty daunting.
Oh Jules - I do hope things turn out okay. You are going through so much at the moment.
I brought my daughter home last weekend. she hasn’t been well for a while with one thing and another and I thought then she was depressed. I took her to our doctors and he was lovely with her. She has stayed a few days but now gone back to her flat and seems a bit brighter but doc has given her some antidepressants. I hope they work for her.
It’s hard for us going through this and also all our other worries.
Hi Jules,
I’m so sorry you are going through all this right now, you must be so worried. As someone else said, it might be a breast mouse, which I think are quite common, but you will worry until you know for sure. This is so hard for you so soon after your mum’s dx. If it was me I would definitely go to a private clinic due to my anxiety, but everyone’s different. Have they given you any indication how long a referral will take?
Take care and please please let me know how you’re getting on.
Massive hugs,
Zoe x x
Thanks ladies. I have an appointment with my gp at 9.10 this morning and I am also going to ring up the private hospital today about arranging a mammogram. I feel sick this morning with sheer terror. All the emotions of how I feel for my daughter, mum and now this scare with me is like hell.
Golly you have such a lot on your plate at the moment. How is your Mum?
Just want to wish you well with GP appt this morning, please let us know how you get on. Hopefully it is just a breast mouse as previously said but in your position I would have to pay for a private mammo rather than wait for breast clinc referral. It will be good to cross one worry off the list.
Hi Jules, I too have read your supportive comments about your mum and you sound so kind and caring to both your mum and your daughter. You must be so upset at now finding this lump and furious with gp for thinking you were just over concerned because of your mum.
My mum is really not well at moment too, so I know what its like to be worrying about others when suddenly you then have to worry about yourself, it seems so unfair when you want to be there for others and support them without worrying about yourself, you can do it, so all I can suggest is that you take a deep breath, I have had to take a few!!! and try be strong for everyone yourself included, you will find it in you, keep hanging on, hopefully you will get your private mammogram, and scan if possible and I hope it will be a benign lump like a fibroadenoma or something.
Take care
Thinking of you
Let us know how you get on
Dawn X
This is probably a bit late now as you will have seen your GP, but when I found my lump I saw my GP on the monday evening, and as I was due to go on holiday the following weekend, he got me into my local breast clinic the following day. He rang me at work Tuesday morning to say I had an appointment at 1.30 that day - so you don’t have to go private to get quick results.
I sympathise with you feeling overloaded. My mum died of an unknown cancer one week, we had the funeral the next week, and I found the lump the week after. I was being dx with cancer three weeks after she died of cancer. My younger daughter has also been bullied at school over the last year, to the extent that she is changing school in September to get her away from it.
Sometimes sh*t happens. And just because it’s happened to you once, it doesn’t give you any imunity from it coming at you again. Have you considered counselling? I had it and it really helped.