Thank you @rbf, @buggeringon. I tried to speak to my step-mum today, as she kindly chauffeured me around to the LGFB make-up session and wig fitting. But, she didn’t get me either.
@rbf It’s like the theoretical side of my head and the emotional side of my head do not align. I’m still stubbornly at that stage of feeling like my body has failed me.
@buggeringon that’s is really helpful to think of stock answers to give. The 5 friends I’ve told all lead by what I need, but not everyone is like that as you say.
I’ll call my BCNurse tomorrow, she has been wonderful throughout. I’m sure she won’t mind me popping in for a cry again.
On a positive note, the LGFB make-up session was wonderful! There were 8 ladies there who were all lovely and two ladies delivering the session. They take you through a skin care routine with the products in your goodie bag, and then how to apply all the makeup products. Whilst chatting, I was also able to ask the other ladies about how they had shared their diagnosis. That has helped feel less manic today. I know it stems from Monday’s meeting, and I really hope the new drug suits me @nib32 thank you 
Not much luck on the wig however, the one the lady had ordered in looked wiggy, so got to wait for the others to come in.
Feeling better than I did this morning, thank you for listening 
Here is the goodie bag I received:
