One year on but fears continue

Hi everyone, I am now one year on from start of what my GP called the breast cancer journey.  I had a WLE and axillary clearance.  Chemotherapy and radiation followed and I am now half way through Herceptin treatment. I feel very lucky that I can have this treatment as it is said to be very successful.  I hope I am one of the successes.  I have received excellent care from all medical staff involved and can not in any way complain.  Everything that needs to be done is and I have never had to chase things up.  What I find hard to deal with is the psychological impact having breast cancer has had on me.  Physically I have recovered well but I still fight survival demons just about every day.  I think that this is perhaps related to me losing my younger sister three years ago and a very close friend on the same day from the disease.  Although both had different types of breast cancer and both had lived many years free from the disease before a recurrence.  Neither had the same type of breast cancer as me but it still haunts me that I could be going down the same road as them.  Sorry if I sound like a moan but I can’t help it.  I have met many inspirational women on my journey so far which I feel helps but I can still feel frightened about the future.  Sorry if I sound like one big moan especially as this is the first time that I have ever did anything like this.  I love reading all the stories which has also given me strength.

Hi busyanne amd welcome to the BCC forums

I am sure your post will resonate with many of your fellow users here, in addition to the support and experience shared here you may find the following ‘Moving forward from breast cancer’ information and support helpful:

breastcancercare.org.uk/moving-forward

Our helpliners are on hand with practical and emotional support weekdays 9-5 and Saturdays 10-2 on 0808 800 6000 so please feel free to call

Take care
Lucy BCC