Hi all
Hope you all had a good weekend. I wondered if any one could help me through this? On Monday of last week I was putting my youngest to bed and he leant on my left shoulder as I read to him. I know it sounds daft but where his head was resting I felt quite a lot of pain. It was almost like I had walked into something and forgotten and him leaning on me made me feel to bruise. Well,once he was asleep I looked but didn’t find a bruise. This pain bothered me and for the rest of the week I touched it and felt more aware of it. By Thursday I was worried enough to talk to hubby who got me to phone the drs. I went on Friday and then spent about half an hour bawling my eyes out in her surgery!! I was so surprised…I really thought that I was handling this rubbish but it really got me. She was brill and sent me for an x-ray, results next week. Of course I came away from the x-ray convinced that the news will be bad. I was sure that the nurse had a look of sympathy on her face when she told me to go to the drs next week for the result.!!
On a lighter note, whilst whingeing to the dr I mentioned that I had had enough of the dreaded hot flushes and she suggested a cake made by, Linda Kearns, has any one heard of it?
I’ve looked it up on net and am thinking of ordering the recipe/cook book.
Lastly I feel also that I have double standards sometimes as I have had the odd puff in the last year…I class myself as a non smoker and have felt terribly guilty…the thought process is one of contempt, does that make sense? I really don’t like it all and feel so rebellious…I know it’s wrong and all the health implocations but just now and again I think, ‘‘blow it’’. Just needed to get that off my chest. Sorry.
Bit of a Sunday nigh rant, trying to keep busy til Friday.
Best wishes,
Scarlet.
Firstly I wanna let you know that I’ve certainly got my fingers and toes crossed for you as you await the results of your x-ray, I hope everything is fine. I know what its like though, I worry about every single ache and pain I get these days! I hate that look that the staff at hosp’s give you when you come out of having a scan or test. After my CT they seemed to give me this ‘look’ and then asked if I had another appt to see my onc. This scared the bejesus out of me! No need as it turns out as all was fine. Then I had a panic attack when I had my bone scan. Half way through they asked if I had any pain anywhere, then at the end they said they had to do a couple more pics as there was something wrong with the machine. To me, these 2 comments combined meant there was defo something wrong!! Thankfully I was worrying over nothing though as this came back fine too. Phew!!
I totally know what you mean about being a non-smoker but having the odd puff! I gave up smoking a few years ago but last year I took to having the occasional mini-cigar. When I was diagnosed in March the occasional one became a daily one, but I knocked it on the head soon as I found out I was to have Herceptin once I’ve finished chemo and had my rads. Anyway, lately I have had the odd mini-cigar. I do feel quite guilty and like I’m taking the p*ss when I’m having treatment but I find it to be a real stress beater and I really do enjoy the occasional smoke. So, I can totally sympathise with you there!! Now and again I just think s*d it, if I wanna have a little smoke then I will. I know it sounds irresponsible but like you I just think ‘blow it’!
Anyhoo, wishing you well for your next docs appt. Please let us know how you get on,
Hi Kelly
just read your comments and feel soooooo much better. I really am glad that you understand, I was so worried that when I posted that I would get a million lectures etc. It is only the occasional, not every day and not even every week. So blow it and thanx .
This is my first x-ray related to anything after the treatment, had a chest x-ray and of course rads but this is the first time that I have gone to the drs with a specific pain…I guess that’s why I’m nervous. I have had, like everyone, hundreds of twinges and aches and everyday I’m like an old woman in the first half hour out of bed!!!so it’s not the first pain I’ve had, but it is the first one to get to me. I am so glad that your results came back o.k. Did you have your CT scan following an x-ray? Or did they just send you straight to the CT. Or was it x- ray then bone scan? Sorry for all the questions, my dr did say that if they felt it neccessary then I would go on to have a bone scan. Well we’ll just wait and see…I’m sure it’s nothing.
Where are you at now? I’m ER positive so hormone treatment (tamoxifen) for the next…whatever. Oh well! Had a lumpectomy, then found no clear margins and lymph involved so onto a mastectomy, chemo and then rads. Dx Friday 13th Jan 06. Such fun.
Any way hon, thanx for listening, if you know what I mean, Take care
Scarlet. xx
No worries, just glad I could be of help! I do feel guilty sometimes if I fancy a smoke but I always say to my boyfriend that I’m not gonna beat myself up about it. Like you say, I don’t do it every day, every week or even every month, so s*d it!!
I was diagnosed on March 19th this year, age 34. Had a right mastectomy and total axillary clearance the following week. Mine is hormone receptive, HER2 + and I had loads of lymph node involvement. I started chemo in May and have 1 cycle of CMF left (hurrah!!!) then its 15 rads for me, Tamoxifen for 5 years and Herceptin for 1 year. Phew!! They’re throwing the lot at this little bu**er and I’m not complaining! Well, not much anyway!!! LOL.
I had a chest x-ray as part of the usual pre-op stuff. As I had so many lymph nodes involved my onc sent me for a CT scan before I started chemo to check for further spread. At my hosp they don’t tend to do any scans routinely, just if someone presents with any symptoms or has lymph nodes involved. The CT showed a tiny ‘blip’ on my spine that was thought to be totally unrelated and nothing sinister but my onc then sent me for a bone scan as a ‘baseline’.
Playing the waiting game is ar*e and I really do feel for you. Thankfully, as I said before, the results of my scans were ok and I’m hoping yours will be too,
Hello all,
I spoke to the docs today and the x-ray results came in normal. I am so relieved, but still have some pain. Admittedly it has subsided quite a bit, but it is definately still there. Ho hum, maybe I am just paranoid. I am very relieved though and hope that the pain goes away altogether now, I think that I will keep my eye on it though.
Thanks for your thoughts,hope you are all well and have lovely weekend.
All the best Scarlet. xx