positivity 2 years later

I was diagnosed 2 years ago with breast cancer. 3cm tumour,3 lymph nodes involved. I had a year of treatment, Surgery chemo and radiotherapy. Life for a while was tough to say the least, and many many tears were shed, however I would like to let others who are deep in the woods now so to speak, that there is hope of normallity returning again. I am lucky enough to be enjoying good health again apart from a wee bit fatigue now and again. I savour each day, and drink in the special things in life. My childrens laughter, blue sky on a sunny day. Everything seems new and fresh in my eyes. My physical relationship with my husband has returned to normal, with a wee bit help from oestrogen cream, the relationship is even better because we are on a different emotional plain after being through so much together.
Im about to start a new job, and feel valued in the work place again. On the whole life is good. really really good. Yes I know its fragile, and in my dark moments I still fear the beast returning, but hey here I am. Today. Tomorrow, next week…Ive even booked a holiday fro next year. I am a survivor, and proud. I hope anyone who reads this will get some hope or strength from it. There is life after breast cancer, a scarier life but a richer one, if you choose it to be.

Hi Hollyhock,
I so needed to read what you have written. I am in that dark place right now going through chemo and it has taken me to a place where im scared of never returning from.
I feel as though i can,t cry anymore,and i,m like an addict trying to find positives,so may i thank you for letting us know that at the end there can be a begining again. Thank you
Tracey

Hi Hollyhock ,many thanks for your post.It has given me a much needed boost today.Enoy your holiday! and may you have many many more,
Love
Dot
xx

It think it is very refreshing to hear your story, Hollyhock. We have to live life to the full, even if under the shadow of cancer returning or anything else horrible happening for that matter. If you sat and waited until life was perfect with no risks of getting any diseases or any of your loved ones coming to harm before you could dare enjoy yourself, you would have an awful, long,boring wait. Life is full of crap with BC being just one more thing for me to handle. It is easier for me to say this because at the moment, my prognosis is good, so I am not looking years ahead to what might be, but like you, living much more in the present than I ever did.

awww Hollyhock - that is such a great post - thank you

Well done Hollyhock - your just the boost i need’nt too - go girl!!! xxx

Hollyhock, so glad to hear you’re doing so well and long, long may it continue. Yes, it’s important that we post positively on here. The early weeks/months is a scary place to be for many, so it’s good to read that someone’s come through it and just enjoying life to the full. Let’s hope your scary place is permanently behind you now.

Maureen xx

It does me good to hear stories like this as I am managing to keep positive myself despite the odd wobble. However, I am very careful about what I post at times to do with positivity on these boards as a lot of people take offence at it. I was very curtly reminded by a couple of posters the other week that not everyone can be positive on account of secondaries etc. However, at the moment I am not affected by this and I don’t go on the secondaries board either. I just get by in whatever way I can and try to keep busy with work and study.

I too am two years down the line and am just now ‘smelling the roses’ again.In the last week or so I have walked briskly for a mile and a half,stayed up late to see a film.carried a toddler and been Christmas shopping!Life is good-here at this moment I am happy.I will NEVER forget chemo[esp tax]or all the lingering side effects but there is an end to it.If ‘it’ returns I’ll have to get on with it but like hollyhock I am breathing easy for now.Love Valxx

Hi,

It is good to hear positive stories. I finsinshed treatment 7/10/08 and to be honest am struggling now with what next. I am moarning for the old me the positive, fear free, confident outgoing person i once was. I don’t want to live my life in fear but its still early days.

Cherub, please do not feel you are offending people by what you put on the board. this board is here for everyone to discuss, share and help when needed. If someone reads something they don’t like they can stop reading. Shouldn’t stop you from expressing whats going on with you.

Thanks anyhow.
sukes

Hi

New on here, not posted before but have been reading messages for many months. I finish my treatment tomorrow and much though I am looking forward to not having hospital appointments I feel very anxious now active treatment is coming to an end. It gives me confidence to read positive threads from people a couple of years down the line with their BC story

Thanks
Jules

Yes it is wonderful to see a positive posting and I’m so happy for all of you who have got through your treatments. I myself am two years post treatment and am feeling happy too. I’m back in work full time now used to be part time pre-cancer. I go out with my girlfriends most weekends for a little drink and a boogie. I have been on a cruise to the most beautiful Norway and Iceland and booked another to the Med lol. I try to live my life as happily as I can and try not to let anything bring me down. I love life 1000 times more now than ever. I still get scared now and then like we all will for the rest of our lives but I don’t let it haunt me for long life is too precious to spend fretting. There is definitely life after Breast Cancer and we are all here to prove it. XXX

Lisa.