Hello, my first post. Dx in 2004, mastectomy, chemo and radiotherapy. two higher end grade 2 tumours. 14/14 nodes affected, nodes had a small amount of spread in tissue. Removed at time of surgery. 3 years on Tamoxfin and then 19 months on Armidex.
Bone scan revealed secondary cancer in L1 of the spine, follow up scan shortly after showed T8 and T10 affected. Had one treatment of radiotherapy for the L1 - (Diagnosed 18th June 2009)
I am now close to panic, I have had pain in right upper side for a good few weeks, but not too worried as I had a missed DVT in my leg that went to lungs (PE’s) so thought it might be that. Pain moved to the centre of chest so went to A&E on advice of NHS direct, they said it was probably a chest infection as my x-ray showed a fuzzy area (I think the fuzzy area is where the clots are) They gave me antibiotics which I finished about a week or so ago. No improvement. Increased discomfort in my sternum, tonight aching in the left rib and right rib beside the sternum.
Phoned my BN and I will see my oncologist next Thursday, had a bone scan follow up for 10th Dec and that can’t be moved forward because I have had such a lot of scans recently with the PE’s and DVT and bone secondaries.
Very close to panic this time. Psychologically I was coping with the spine but the constant feeling cancer in front of me, won’t let ‘put it behind me’. I can’t forget about it. My breast nurse, who has been my rock since 2004 did say the sternum was a common site for secondary breast cancer, she never says anything like that so I have a feeling that maybe she is pessimisic about it.
Feels stupid to say but I feel like giving up but I have since 2004 focused on staying alive for my boys. Two have special needs, 10, 12 and 16 years old now.
I’ve been in limbo since 2004, I knew it would come back, my odds were poor even for the first year and I never got my stamina back. Even worse now, tired all the time and barely coping day to day.
Any ideas how I can get through this dreadful feeling of panic and just try and forget about this horrible feeling in my sternum, even if its for a few minutes as its driving me crazy.