So I get my scan results tomorrow. Although I have already had my first post chemo scan (Jan), for various reasons (long story) I never really got grips with what was on it (trying to compare ultrasound with a CT). Other than the senior reg saying there were “No surprises” I’m not sure what showed up. Assumed that the cancer had not decided to go rampaging around in my liver, lung and bones as I wasn’t immediately hauled back for chemo and was left on Tamoxifen.
Have been quite happy in the little kingdom of Denial for the past 6 weeks and feeling very well. While I’ve not yet reached the stage of having a major meltdown,I’m aware that I have been more stressed over the weekend with a bit of low level anxiety.
Mostly I think I am just pretending its not happening and then I beat myself up for not facing reality.
I have no idea what this post is about. Think I just needed to write things down. It’s at times like this that I could really do with a drink but haven’t had one since my diagnosis last June. Weird. I was drinking and taking anti-depressants before my diagnosis and now I have neither. Surely that’s the wrong way around! LOL
Laurie, best of luck for tomorrow. Hopefully it will make all clear to you. Take a recorder and tape your consultation if you can. Failing that a notebook and pencil with a second pair of ears!! Everybody on this site is in the Kingdom of denial 99-9% of the time. How could you cope otherwise. Nature is a wonderful thing.
Lots if Hugs and shoulders to cry with joy on.
Cackles
My husband is going with me and he is good at taking notes and reminding me of stuff. I suppose i could have pushed to find out exactly what stage things were at last time but ignorance can be truly blissful!
lalalalalalala - I’m not listening *puts fingers in ears*
It is so hard waiting for results, it’s completely normal to feel edgy. Will be thinking of you tomorrow with all crossable bits crossed! Big strong positive vibes flying your way, Julie x
Thanks for asking Cackles, I’m doing OK, do have some pain but it’s manageable. I went out shopping today with my dau for a couple of hours. I have a flipping stye which is sore, I guess an infection got into my eye cos of no lashes. Hope all’s well with you.
I’m feeling OK Laurie and recovering well, thanks. Sitting on the sofa with my laptop, I’ve tried to sleep but noooooooooo. I’m going to try again soon, just drinking a hot milky chocolate.
The Oscars bore me, it’s all too too lovey and false…funny though, even though it’s not meant to be! But give me the likes of Adele at the Brits any day, more honest and down to earth LOL.
I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow, hope you manage to sleep OK.
Libbyand Laurie gave you listened to the Rollercoaster Song ? Perhaps it is too realistic for this time of the morning!! It is still on the first page,
A full night of sleep to report, I hope you were all so lucky too :o)
Thiking of you today Laurie, hoping for the right result and for your Onc to be totally bolled over by progress…well that’s the world I would like to be in today with you. Glad your OH is coming with you, he can be your notepad. Its funny, I take my mum with me and then end up explaining it all to her on the way home LOL Its lovely for her to come though :o)
Glad you are ok Libby…sofa surfer…stay there as long as you feel comfortable and let your body recover, don’t do too much rushing around Yet!!
Lots of kisses for my daughter as she departs and sneeking back to bed after dog has been collected for extra hour snooze, bliss…
Hi Laurie, hope all goes well today and you can get back into the Land of Denial, where you will find most of us I expect Well, 99% of the time! I had a CT scan last october, my first for 2 years as I wanted to see the bigger picture With all the scanxiety it caused me I thought why did I bother asking for it? Ignorance certainly can be bliss. Good luck.
Nicky xx
Well, 99% of the time! I had a CT scan last october, my first for 2 years as I wanted to see the bigger picture