I seem to be ranting a lot at the moment - perhaps the whole anger thing is really hitting me at the moment, I’m just so sick of all of this stuff.
Well, let me fill you in on St James Hospital’s phone call to me today.
I have some transportation worries because my friends all work so I don’t have anyone who can help out with getting me to and from St James on a daily basis, so I can’t arrange a rota of friends to share out the load.
I don’t have any family locally that can help out either.
My partner works daily too in another town.
We can only afford to run 1 car and my partners workplace is not within easy access of public transport.
So the only options we felt we had was for me to take my partner to work and use our joint car for my appointments as we really can’t afford for my partner to take unpaid time off work, we’re living on £60 a week for food and household expenses.
I don’t want to take patient transport because I’ve heard it’s a nightmare, that it takes 4/5 hours out of each day and people find it very depressing to have to do this daily.
However, I was concerned about my levels of tiredness due to recovering from Chemotherapy.
I want to be able to drive my partner to work , go to St James and do my appointment there, drive back - have some time in the afternoon to have a rest, I find I need 2 hours sleep mid afternoon most days, then go back to pick up my partner from work at 5pm.
I have discussed my concerns with my Breast Care Nurse and with the radiologist in a recent appointment regarding transportation to St James hospital.
I was advised not to be too worried as they are very accommodating and if I wanted early appointments then this shouldn’t be an issue and I should be able to be fit into early appointments and that I would know the schedule for all my treatments. This was causing me a lot of anxiety so when I was reassured I felt this was an end to it.
I received a call today from a lady at Bexley Wing, to arrange my appointments, she could only arrange appointments for the 1st week and had a couple of calls due to the timing of appointments in the first week. I would prefer 9:30am or to be leaving by 4:00pm to fit this around my availability for transport.
Shes’ managed to do some appointments around 10am for the first week but after that she says they can’t perform miracles, they will *try* and accommodate me but can’t promise anything, wanted to book me in for midday appointments the 2nd week at 13:34pm which I have refused due to my tiredness, I would still need to get up early to take my partner to work, come back home, then go out again to Leeds!
When I explained to her what I’d been told previously she said that the machines are “chock-a-block” and basically that I shouldn’t have been told this previously.
I’m now feeling fairly stressed to be honest. I appreciate that the machines are probably busy and that the NHS is stretched etc. However, if I would have been told in the past of this, I’d be more prepared. I now feel very confused about what is going to happen.
There does seem to be a lack of communication between all involved
She informed me that on my first appointment I could go to reception at Bexley Wing and discuss my concerns but that they can’t promise me anything.
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I was really really upset after the call, feeling like my lifes being taken over again and I’m just so exhausted all the time and dont have the energy for it all.
Has anyone else had this happen? I wanted to cry, I wish I had now to get it all out of my system.