Tomorrow, I am going to the hospital to pick up the results of the mammogram I had last week. It’s my sixth years since dx. I’ve already completed five years on Tamoxifen so, it’s a kind of milestone. Needless to say, that I find myself in front of the computer, all watery and shaky with a knot on my thought.
When I had the mammogram, I asked the radiographer to have a pick. Both mammograms were on display, the previous year one and the one I just had. They looked different. I saw little bright white spots. I questioned the radiographer about them and she just told me: “That’s inside your breast”, not a very clarifying answer, although is a relief to know that, “that wasn’t inside my testicles”.
Anyway, I thought that what I saw were micro calcifications. When I got home, I started researching, and I came across of images of mammograms with this particular lesion, which were horrendously similar to mine. I tried to keep it away of my mine but, today I starting panicking again and, Here I am freaking out, imagine a feature of chemotherapy, surgery and the other groceries that cancer has on store from you.
I feel really confused, sometimes I feel deeply stupid to come into a conclusion like this and, other times, I feel just down, scared and angry. Please, tell me that I am normal!. Anyway, I just wanted, needed to share this crazy scary moment with you.
Hi HAppynipple
Great picture!
Just want to say hope everything goes ok tomoz. I can’t offer any expert advice, but I think it’s normal to feel like this, I would be feeling the same way. I have my first mammo checkup end of feb & all the what ifs are already surfacing’ as are pre nerves just for having the mammo, let alone getting results.
Best wishes for tomorrow.
Alis
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just wanted to say that i really hope your given the results you want tomorrow. tonight will be stressfull. if you are reading this, then may i suggest that you stop? waht will be will be. a sleepless night wont change anythinng, just the bags under your eyes. distraction is key for now. maybe think of something to celebrate with after your results tomorrow? be it a glass of wine, a cream tea with a friend, or some pampering perhaps?
Hope all is well tomorrow. Try not to worry too much tonight.
I have calcifications in my ‘good’ boob (actually had them in both, but don’t have the other boob any more) and they are benign. I was told that, while they can be malignant, most often they aren’t and are associated with cysts (which I’ve also got). The calcifications in the ‘bad’ boob weren’t a problem either - I had a big lump that was!
On the mammo they do look like little bright specks.
Fortunately, everything was fine. I feel soooooooooooo relieve. However, now I have to decide what to do next. I finished my 5 years on Tamoxifen. My oncologist think there is no need for me to have further treatment. I completely and strongly disagree with him. The likelihood of recurrence on hormone positive cancer are between the 6 and 12 years after initial dx so, I feel I really need to do something. My options are: