Hello I have posted on these forums briefly before. I am one year on from treatment finishing. I have my first yearly treatment coming up in two weeks. I keep getting the most negative feelings that cancer will be found again. I keep crawling through day by day until the check up in two weeks. On the back of my breast cancer treatment I have had carpal tunnel syndrome in both hands. I dont iknow if it is the result of tamoxifen years of touch typing in my job as an office administrator i dont know what has caused that. Anyway I have had two operations for decompression surgery to deal with my carpel tunnel syndrome in both hands. I had an operation on both hands and the symptoms have gone and my hands are find now. I had those operations privately as the nhs waiting lsit is so long.
I have negative feelings about the forthcoming 1st year check up. That the cancer will be found again etc. My prognosis was good last year when I finished treatment. I really want to get back to work and move on. Each day up to the check up is difficult.
Also I am worried about alcohol consumption I am on tamoxifen and how much I should be drinking. Can any members advise me please. Also I am feeling low because a friend of mine died three weeks after a long battle with lung cancer and it has not helped my emotional state at all.
Please accept my apologies for the long, rambleing and muddled post.
can any members give me any words of wisdom or advice.
you are all wonderful people thank you so much.
Hello Dancing - your post made me very sad, you’ve got such a lot of worry on your plate and its clear you’re hurting badly. I’m so sorry you’ve lost your friend. Have you thought about phoning the helpline, it sounds to me like you could really do with a listening ear right now. The BCC folks will also be able to point you in the right direction as far as any other support is concerned. Volunteers could touch base with you every day on the lead up to your checks in a couple of weeks. You’ve certainly done the right thing by posting. I’m about to have my first mammogram on Wednesday and i completely know what you mean about fearing it has come back - other ladies on here have told me its very natural to feel anxious at check ups and anniversaries. If you’d like you can personal message me and we can go through the first checks together. I’m sure other ladies will come along soon to offer you support too.
Hang on in there.
Lynn
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hi
I,m still on chemo so i haven’t got any advice for you and probably not any words of wisdom, but wanted to offer my support. I,m sure everyone at your stage in BC feels exactly the same, it must be a normal response after the all you,ve been through. I suppose your in the ‘waiting room’ again and as everyone says - this is the hardest place.
I,m very sorry to hear about your friend - life is just not very fair sometimes is it. like you,ve already said this can’t be helping with the way your feeling at the moment.
I,m wishing you all the very best for your 1st year check up. Will keep everything crossed for you
Maria x
Hi i have been through the exact emotions, i think you will find it is quite normal to worry, i was just pased 12 months after treatment and was very down and low after losing a friend the same age as me 50 through cancer my sister in law had been diagnosed as well, where will it end, i was refered to councilling and found it great i sobbed every time i saw her but it did the trick . Feel so much more positive about the future,
The last time i went for my check up i asked the doctor how would i know if somthing was going on in my body, he said we cant keep scanning because of the radiation which is not good for you but first signs you lose weight, lack of appetite pain in your spine or bones, feeling unwell. Thank god i havent got any of thease symtoms, but we all need reassuring all the time.
Stay positive my love but i know exactly what you are going through. Angexxxxx
Thank you everybody for your wonderful messages of advice and support. I have contacted the BCC helpline and hope that a volunteer will ring me for a chat and also they are sending me the information pack moving forward which I am sure will be very helpful indeed.
I have had my one year check up today and things are fine. I had an examination and a mammogram at my local general hospital and got the results afterwards. When my right hand has recovered from crapal tunnel syndrome decompression surgery in a few weeks, I will start to look for another job again and move forward.
Dancing that’s the best news for you. I’m so pleased that you passed the tests. Really really pleased.
Thank you very much indeed hipchick.