Hi guys, newbie here!
I will try and keep this short and sweet.
When I was pregnant 2 and half years ago I found a long bumpy lump on the top part of my right breast. I just put it down to hore ones and pregnancy changes and forgot about it. For the last few months I have been seeing a chiropractor for a dull constant pain under ny right shoulder blade. This has got no better, in fact worse. On Monday morning I was getting in the bath and noticed a very dark, sludgy muddy puddle discharge coming out of my right breast. I squeezed it amd lots more came out of one pore only. I I mediated started googling and gorlt scared and called the doctor. I went in that afternoon and upon examination, the gp found this lump in my left breast that I had found when pregnant. I have a mamogram booked for Monday and I’m petrified. I spent 12 years trying for my daughter and finally she was born and is now only 2;1/2. I’m petrified that if I do have the big C that it’s very advanced as it’s been a few years since I found it.
In the last few months I’ve also been noticing my arm pits are smelly even a few hours after a bath. I’ve changed my Deodorant several times to try and stop this. It’s getting worse and not sure of this is also a symptom.
I am also exhausted all over the time and just had a feeling that something isn’t right with me for a while.
So, im a nut she’ll I went in for the dodgy discharge from one boob amd came out with a lump on the other I had totally forgotten about.
I’m petrified I won’t be around to see my daughter grow up.
I’m so scared. I don’t even know what ive been refered for. The discharge or the lump. The gp seemed to be more concerned about the lump and on further inspection (been obsessed with comparing it to the other boob) it hangs lower, if I raise my arm it looks flat at the bottom where as the other one is rounded. My nipple also sits facing to the left so crooked (lump side)
I’m not even sure what I’m asking here, I thinking woupd just like to know if any of the symptoms ring any bells with anyone?
Esp the shoulder blade pain and excess sweating /smell.
Sorry for rambling. Tha ks in advance
Sorry for the typos!
Hi dangermouse. First of all sending you big hugs, it’s very clear how stressed you are.
I would imagine that you’ve been referred to the Breast Clinic at your local hospital for a consultation, mammogram and any other tests they may think necessary.
They will do a mammogram of both breasts and (if you are going to the Breast Clinic) the Consultant should be able to tell you what they’ve seen and whether any further tests are needed at that appointment.
Possibly ultrasound and a biopsy. LOTS of women have biopsies and the vast majority are given the all clear.
Many, many years ago I had a discharge from both nipples, that turned out to be an infection - so it doesn’t necessarily mean anything sinister.
Googling symptoms can be really alarming - we’ve all been there! I know it’s extremely easy to say but try to resist, if you possibly can.
You’re also in the full anxiety stage of waiting to find out what the lump is and I’m sure imagining the worst - again, you’re not alone.
Do you have a good girl friend/partner or family member you can talk to and take with you on Monday? I’d definitely recommend taking someone with you, they’ll be a great source of emotional support to you while you’re hanging round.
This site is full of wonderful people who will give you support and advice when you need it, with whatever emotions you are going through. Everyone can truly empathise.
Keep in touch on here. I’m sure many others will reply too. :)
Hugs.
Seren xx
Thanks for your reply. Just came to see my mum and cried like a baby. I don’t think they’ll be any more responses but I thank you for taking the time out to post. I think I feel so scared as since my daughter was (eventually) born I have been petrified of something bad happening to me or my loved ones. It’s quite a worry how much I actually spend dreading it. Now it feels like it’s all coming true. I know I need to pull myself together and stay positive.
Hi Dangermouse,welcome to the forum.All the things you are describing could quite easily be non cancer related ,if symptoms have started after you had your daughter could there be a hormonal element ,2.5 year olds are also pretty good at exhausting you too !!!Try and stay busy and stay away from Google you can scare yourself silly .Hope you get some reassuring answers on Monday.Jill.
HI Daangermouse,
Firstly, big hugs to you, I feel your. worry and fear but you’re not alone, we understand what you’re going through right now.
The waiting is truly hideous and there is a tendancy to think negatively about everything! Going through this stage always difficult and you frantically look for answers online…as you have learnt already; general Googling is dangerous territory! Here, Cancer Research and Macmillan are best really.
As said, they will likely do mammograms, ultrasound and a needle biopsy at the breast clinic and hopefully have results in a week. I would think they will almost definitely look at both breasts and give you a good check over
We will have our fingers crossed for it to be nothing sinister but do keep us informed and let us know how it goes on Monday and try to what you can to keep your mind off it, although that is easier said than done!
Amanda x
Thank you ladies. Feel better today but have my moments. Still failing to get off Google though. Think what’s making this worse is that if this lump is anything bad then it’s likely to be very advanced due to how long I’ve had it. I will kick myself very hard of it is as when I found it, I was so focused on health implications in my pregnancy from Ivf that I dismissed it as I had bigger things on my mind like keeping the pregnancy I’d longed for for all those years. Can’t turn back time though so.
One thing I have read is that if a lump is near your chest plate/bones?! Then they can’t always do a biopsy as the position is awkward. Not sure if I’m thinking the positioning of it is higher than it is as since breastfeeding they are very droopy!
Again, sorry for rambling. Thanks all for your time
I think they are pretty skilled at taking biopsies whatever the position.If you do too much research you just get confused and even more scared .Hopefully they will be able to put your mind at rest on Monday .There are other conditions that could be responsible for your symptoms try to focus on that .Jill.
Naughty girl…you need to stop Googling! 
I know, that’s almost impossible but remember that you are probably looking at either forums (yes, I know like this!) but some people do use them to vent or get sympathy or cause fear (they may not even have BC at all) so you can’t think of them as especially useful for medical stuff and if you look at the ‘proper sites’ they can give good information but it is very general.
I know you’re worried about how long you have had the lump, but remember; you have not been diagnosed with anything yet so no one knows you even have a condition as yet. It seems a long time, but even if it’s cancer, some are very slow growing and bigger size doesn’t necessarily mean it’s hard to treat. Hopefully they will be able to biopsy it, I recon as long as they can get a needle in, they will get something! Mine was in an ‘easy’ place, so they didn’t have any problem, the results were back the following week.
Hang in there, I found the six days waiting to go to the breast clinic worse than the week waiting for the results after! They were super supportive and kind and I felt very reassured that I would get the right treatment if they found anything.
Amanda x
Thanks again. Ok I’m stopping the Google searches now!
I think as a lot of other people have said it’s the wait. (And there was me thinking the 2ww to do the pregnancy test aftrr ivf cycle was hard enough! )
I definately feel more positive today. If it is bad then what choice have we but to stay positive
Thanks (again and again)