Okay, I’m sure you have all read my previous posts… Waiting AGAIN for results…
I can’t help thinking WHY is this happening… Was I such a bad person in my previous life…
I Am I so sad that im making Christmas decorations and presents for all my family this year… Is this something for them to keep, or am I going out of my mind…I have made my mum a bracelet and necklace, same for my sister… Christmas tree decs for the rest of my family…
Oh Teresa,big hugs honey.You are not a bad person,none of us are.You are a major support to many people on this forum.
The wee sma hours are the worst for these thoughts. They are a bit easier to control during the day.I personally would like the powers to be do something about the wait we all have for results.Do they have any idea what we go through? No they bl**dy don’t!
Coupled with christmas looming,its no wonder you are feeling the way you do.I can only send big hugs and hope that daylight brings some relief.When are your results due? I will keep everything crossed for you xxxxxxxxxx
No nothing you have done Theresa, we are alljust bldy unlucky and it’s totally unfair. Huge hugs to you, I know exactly where you’re coming from with the Christmas stuff. Try to keep occupied? Vickie xxx
Sorry to hear you’re feeling down. If you would like some extra support please do give the helpline here a ring, they’re here for you. Calls are fre, 0808 800 6000.
Hi Teresa
Huge hugs, and can completely understand why you are feeling the way that you do. Dealing with the waiting is the toughest part of all of this and I know that the medical staff do their best (generally) but they do not have any idea the impact of saying any length of time in relation to waiting for results. TBH 5 mins is too long …
Christmas is a terrible time of year for dealing with this (not that there is a good time); there is so much pressure to make everything brilliant for everyone under normal circumstances, without all this …
I also agree that the wee small hours are the worst, that’s when I have my dark thoughts, hopefully once it is light, you will feel a little better. You shouldn’t deny that you are having these thoughts,there only natural, and I think it is good that you have said them out loud but hang on in there!
My thoughts are with you and keep on being the support to others that you have been.
Hi teresa, So very sorry that you are in such a lousy place, maybe Ive missed some posts, is it because they cant find out why you have got this scab? Your posts when you were in a bad position about going for your rads upset me, Im sure youll feel better when you get your results but in the meantime do you have a healthshop near you,if so, try Bachs herbal mouth spray when those panic thoughts sweep over you, it really helped me to stop thinking those dark thoughts that we all get plus it helped me get back to sleep rather than lying there in a cold sweat. Love and best wishes from Mags xx