Hello all, I am new here after finding a lump in my left breast New year’s eve. I went to Gp on the 2nd Jan and he confirmed a hard lump about the size of a marble, not attached to chest wall or skin, moveable he couldn’t feel any lymph involvement, referred to breast clinic appt this Thursday am so scared and nervous, I keep having “meltdowns” I am trying to be rational but am so scared. I have two teenage children and the thought of telling them terrifies me. I have squished and squeezed my breasts looking for more lumps all weekend and have physically bruised them 
I need to get a grip but thinking the worst all the time even dreamt last night I had Mets and don’t know what to do. I suffer with health anxiety anyway and this is making me a wreck my partner is scared too.
Hi Rebelsrose,
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Jo, Moderator
Hi rebelsrose,
I am so sorry that you are on the waiting bus. It is not a nice place to be at all. Have a look at some of my earlier posts and those of others. Everyone on here knows what you are going through.
You have made the right move with the first steps, getting it checked out. Watiing is going to be the most difficult thing you will have to do. The appoiments are not really a problem its the wait afterwards, the unknown about what will happen next.
On your first visit you will most likely have a breast exam mammogram, possibly ultrasound and if they find anything that needs a further look you may have a FNA which is nothing. I got the results of this first visit back after a week. It turned out that the lump I found and one which the dr found on the other breast were benign. I am still waiting for something else that was found on the mammo but everyone is different at this point. Chances are from what you have said, it is a cyst (moveable etc) but no one except your doctor can confirm this. 80 % of lumps are benign. Of the other 20% that need further investigation, only a small number of those are sinister. These are the stats I have been told by others and I am keeping this in my head at all times. It helps.
Good luck at the clinic and keep us posted on how you get on.
hugs