Hi Ladies
It’s 1.30 am and my husband is asleep next to me but I am wide awake like I have been for most of the nights since Friday when I was told that I have breast cancer. I have a follow up on Friday next week to discuss more details and treatment but have already been told doctor is 95% certain it is cancer, it’s Grade 3 and I’ll need a mastectomy and chemo. To say I am scared is an understatement. I’m absolutely terrified. I don’t know how I am going to get through to Friday let alone treatment and possibly worse. I’m 33 and have an 18 month old son. I just can’t help fall apart when I think about not being there for him. I’m looking for some encouragement and hope. I’m trying to stay positive but all I can see ahead of me in pain, fear and death. xxx
Hello Blondeambition
Welcome to the forums, this must be a very worrying time for you but you have come to the right place for support from our experienced users who I’m sure will be along to support you soon.
You may also like to talk things through with a member of our helpline staff who are there to offer emotional support as well as practical information. The free phone number is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 10.00 to 2.00.
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June, moderator
Hi Blondeambition,we have all felt exactly as you describe.I have spent many nights lying awake overwhelmed by fear thinking morbid thoughts, you go into shock when you are first diagnosed and you cannot see any light at the end of the tunnel.But it does get better and you will feel calmer and more re-assured when you have spoken to the people who are going to treat you and have more information about what happens next.You can get a lot of support from people on this forum and there are other women with young children who I am sure will be along to offer you support and advice .There are a number of threads in the just diagnosed section where newly diagnosed people are talking if you want to join us.jill
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Hi Blonde ambition, it breaks my heart to hear of another young mum being diagnosed, I’m 47 with adult sons and have found it hard enough but you will cope love, your little boy will be the reason you do, please try not to jump the gun, I know it’s easy to say but you just have to try and get through each day until you know what your Dealing with, breast cancer isn’t a death sentence, I’ve been amazed at the people ive come across and what they are living with and have been treated for and they are happily living their lives many years on, stay away from Google and stick to this or the Macmillan web site where you get up to date info and the most supportive group of people who know exactly how you are feeling, the helplines are wonderful too, you will be ok and you will find some strength but let yourself get over the shock first , it’s a natural reaction, we are all here to talk to and try and help you in any way we can Xx love Jo
Hi Blondeambition. I know exactly how you feel. I also have a grade 3 but my surgery was put off as they found another one which is grade 2. I have a 2 year old son. It can be scary at times and I understand the no sleep thing but the ladies on here have provided lots of support. I am due to have a masectomy on 21st July. I am finding waiting the hardest part. It seems to be the same throughout all this. Your consultant will do whatever they need to kick the suckers out. Big hugs xxx