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Hi everyone

Wednesday is nearly here, l am so so scared, l am crying all the time, the discahrge is a strange colour now, from one duct, but if l gently raise my nipple and finger on the aerola area the discharge comes out. My hubby is 100% it is nothing but l am not so sure, l fear most for him - l have read and read what heppens at the clinics but cannot take anything in just now. I Have been told l could be thre for 4hours, so hard to concentrate on work and home.

sorry to moan when as yet l have nothing to worry about

Pcaz
xx

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Ps. anyone in the East Lothian area on here please

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Hi Pcaz

Your first appointment may well take up to four hours, which is the top end for referrals to breast clinics, this is to allow time for testing if necessary.

It is standard procedure for a first appointment, it is not indicative to your personal situation.

I was there for three hours at my first appointment, which was due to there being a lot of people there, nothing at all to do with my situation and it was late in the day…

It is understandable all you are feeling, scared, worried, for your family and people will say all sorts to make you feel better.

This is the right thing to be doing, the appointment, it is necessary to find out what is going on, so that you can move forward. It is so scary, indeed it is, I remember the feeling well, back in February, of what if? But remember, that 80% of lumps do come back benign, and the testing is more to rule out cancer, than look for it… There are so many breast conditions, breast cancer is an umbrella term for many, many cancers, and the odds are that you may well have a benign condition.

Try not to fiddle too much, that will inflame what is already going on, I had a discharge eight years ago…

Call the helpline tomorrow, they will put your mind at rest, read some of the posts on here, in the waiting for test results area, that’s what I did, make a list of questions so that you’re ready for Wednesday…

It is so scary, but we will hold your hand, whatever the outcome, you are not alone, at this fearful time in your life…

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Hi Ladies

thank you for your wonderful words and care they are greatly appreciated, l will call the line tomorrow

Thankyou
PCAZ
x

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PCAZ, I hope you are feeling a bit better today now that you have called the helpline. You asked if anyone was in East Lothian. Well I live in Edinburgh and attend the WGH. My daughter who is 29 went to the WGH 2 weeks ago as she had found a lump. First of all she saw a Consultant who examined her and then she was sent for an ultrasound which was painless and easy. She got word back last week that all was okay.
I wonder if you are attending the same hospital because if you are you will be in good hands. The nurses are all lovely and very helpful. Feeling the way you do is perfectly normal. I know because I have had BC myself. Take someone with you if you can as the clinics can be very busy and it is good to have someone to talk to while you wait. Take care and hoping all is well for you as it was for my daughter. Val

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Hi Scottish Lass
It is the Western General l am attending… my stomach is in my mouth, my hubby is convinced it is hormone hrt related. I know l have to go but do not want to if you knwo what l mean, my dr told me l should get all the resuts same day? I just feel l am in another world and scaed. The nipple discharge from the one nipple is today very watery brown marks and runny and l keep thinking l have all these pains.

Thank you for your response, l do not feel so bad if l start sobbing knowing they are nice

take care and so pleased your daughter is okay

PCAZ

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HI pcaz.

I attended WGH at end Jan. I was opposite of you. I actually didn’t for one minute really think it was the Big C. I am only 37 and after all things like that only seem to happen to others. THen WHAM . there and then i was told basically I had C. You need to remember though, that this is actually quite rare. One of the nurses there told me that actually only a small % of folk who go to WGH breast clinic are diagnosed with cancer ( didn’t make me feel better given my age :frowning: )

THe doctors and nurses there are fab. You will be see a consultant first then sent to the dreaded L- shaped waiting room. I was there for for about 5 hrs but that was because I was in a total mess and they needed to find me a room.

Anyway, the point I am making is, most symptoms turn out not to be C and the WGH are very professional. Believe me, if they could get me back on my feet after the state I was in, they can help anyone. All the best for tomorrow and let us know how you get on. I will be thinking about you. x

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Hi Flower20

Thank you so much, l feel such an idiot when l do not even have a diagnosis… the ladies here have been great and you have given me confidence about the staff, l am always scared they think l am an idiot.

l will update you all after tomorrow, all yourwords and courage inspire me and to know l am not alone (even although youthink it) it great

take care dear ladies
PCAZ
x

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good luck. will be thinking about you. Take care x

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pcaz, just to let u know i will be thinking of you tomorrow and will log on to see how u have got on, sending u a huge virtual hug now and I will be a virtual hand holding yours tomorrow xxxxxxx

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Thank you ladies… god bless youall
xxx

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Ladies

thank you all for your good wishes, left work with loads of hugs and a lovely cushion in the shape of an owl that is filled with hugs from people… they arehoping tomorrow they get a text with good news - oh lordy me - dammed nipple discharge please stop it is so runny and watery pale brown tinge… l will update you all

loads of love
xx

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Will be thinking of you tomorrow Pcaz, fingers crossed :slight_smile:
Take care, Foxy x

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Hi pcaz,
Yes indeed. i was at my first and some other appointments for a few hours.
I can only say the breast care unit staff are really great, they have plenty of time for you when it is your turn, they never rush you and always answer all of the questions. When i have just said that i am really scared or worried they never rush me out for the next person waiting, but offer me water or tea or just tell me that it is totally normal to feel retcheed sometimes.
I found it really dificult to sleep or concentrate, could not read a book for long, so i started knitting.
i’m not very good but just started an easy waist coat for my dad really plain poor old soul will probably end up wearing it in the house, or just when i come round lol.
Anyway, for me it passes the time, i’m now on a wrapp for myself, really bright colours.
I have also got a really easy pattern for little t’shirt tops for african children.
Probably seems a bit crazy but it is working for me and i have had my opp, next onto chemo.
As everyone has said yours is probably not cancer, there are lots of lovely people on this site.
Just have a thought if the unit is running late with appiontments they are helping someone who really needs them.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow,
Viv x

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again ladies you are so so wonderful

fingers crossed

pcaz
x

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Pcaz, Just reading this post for the first time. sending you lots of hugs for tomorrow. It is scarey but it may be ok. I too was terrified and couldnt even sit down in the waiting room due to nerves!!!It is completely normal to feel that way.

Thinking of you and good, good luck!!!

Laura xxx

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Pcaz think we were all scared on our first appointment, but lots of hugs and positive thoughts are being sent your way , stay strong xx

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Ginger

thank you - just leaving in 5 mins - did not want to get out of bed!! not me

PCAZ

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Best of luck xx

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Ladies

just home after early 5 hours in clinic, they have confirmed l have blood on rigt nipple, had mamogram then recalled as they found three lumps in left breast, then had ultrasound and three lumps were cysts which they took all fluid from then another mamogram and back to the nurse and surgfeon

they are 99.9 nothing sinister but due to the blood they want to remove my ducts (duct ectyasia) as there is nothing sinister l can go on hol on 10 May, return 28th and 30 go for pre op and 6 June l get all the ducts removed. The consultant was 100% happy at this if it had been sinister he would n ot let me go for holiday, feel a bit surreal now lost nearly a stone in two weeks as l could not eat but now redy for a sleep and food.

ladies thank you for you kindness - anyomne had this op?

pcazxx