Sorry you went through this @William and that you’re still feeling anxious. I’m going to explore anti anxiety and antis depressant drugs. Because I also have to come off HRT and testosterone (which was partly for managing anxiety, but it wasn’t really working) I am likely to need something else to help me cope.
I spoke with a friend this morning, and we were discussing ‘Biographical Renewal’. I’m hoping to explore this more to find strategies to help me cope better.
I hope you can find a way to find inner calm. Best wishes.
That sounds incredibly heavy to carry on your own. Waiting for results is one of the hardest parts — the uncertainty can really take over your thoughts. You’re definitely not alone in feeling that fear and frustration. It’s good that you trusted your gut and went back to get it checked; that kind of self-awareness matters. I hope your appointment brings clear answers and a plan that helps ease your mind a bit. Sending you strength while you wait.
Well now then….so I have a new primary in the other breast to last time, but also presence in my other side in the sculls node, which they don’t know if is from the original cancer 5yrs ago or the new….will be CT and MRI next week for full staging….sh!t!
Oh @2ndtimeve my love. My heart is absolutely reaching out to you. I am so sorry that you have had this news. It is utterly horrible and I just don’t have the right words for you. I think that’s because what is a right word when you get this kind of news. Just know I am thinking of you. We are all in this together. Sending so much love x
Thank you so much for having me in your thoughts. Yes we are made of strong stuff and we will all get through whatever challenges face us because we are warriors. We talk. We show up with our vulnerabilities and we nurture. I only wish that men were able to do that more. I’m trying hard to encourage my lovely husband to talk to other guys in our social circle, but I know he won’t.
Sending love to everyone who has been on this journey or who is dealing with it now. One appointment at a time. One day at a time, or even five minutes at a time. Breathe and Believe is my mantra in life. X
Just wanted to say (having been through 3 bits of surgery, BC first found in a milk duct, then it spread to some lymph nodes…also chemotherapy and 15 sessions of radiotherapy), you won’t necessarily have to have a mastectomy! After the 3rd surgery, my surgeon told me that I didn’t need to have one! I think she was as surprised as I was…whilst waiting for the results of that surgery I was preparing myself for the worst case scenario, in a way. So that was one bit of good news, although it took me a while to accept that I needed to have the chemo…bye for now and good luck with everything. Take care, lots of love
Thank you @sensitiveme for these reassuring words. My expectations are being managed by my breast surgeon to expect a mastectomy, but as you discovered, things can pan out differently once treatment is underway. I’m taking each step at a time. I’ve put the mastectomy on a back burner for now. The immediate challenge is dealing with chemo. I feel sick about it, but who doesn’t?
I’m seeing the oncologist at 9am today, so will know more about when my treatment starts and for how long.
I am so glad that you had a positive result and I hope that your chemo journey caused you minimum discomfort.
Thanks for taking the time to write to me. Lots of love back. x
Thank you @blessed2. Our wonderful NHS is second to none when it comes to cancer care. Yes I am being really well looked after by a superlative team of professionals. The road ahead is daunting, but I know I am in great hands. I’m handing over the technical elements to them, but taking responsibility for doing my bit by looking after myself. That is helping me to feel part of the team.
I hope anyone else reading this and travelling the same path is feeling similarly held.
Good steady progress @Jaygo .
My surgery is booked for 11th December, which is great, I’ve had 4 other spots already (scans/mris)….the CT picked up a couple of nodes in my lung , so now am with respiratory team too…more biopsies to be done there. I’m finding it difficult to raise the fog…
Hey Jaygo. Hope your day was good . I’m up late as always . I was wondering how you are doing on letrozole ? I’ve been on it for over a year. Insomnia is one of the issues I have with it . I really don’t have a lot of menopause symptoms but I do have issues with my stomach. I have my mammogram test on Thursday. As anyone knows that has breast cancer it’s always an anxious moment until you get the all is clear sign . My heart feels for you and everyone in this forum . We are all so strong and we have each other to lean on.
I like you am very thankful for my medical staff who not only have the expertise to cure me but the compassion to get me through the upcoming years.
@2ndtimeve I’m so sorry to read this. Hopefully MacMillan can help with the fog. Sending strength and love and keeping everything crossed that they find nothing. x
Hi @blessed2 sorry you’re dealing with insomnia. I’m having a bit of a broken sleep night myself. I do go through patterns and without wishing to sound woo woo I am sure the cycle of the moon plays a part in this.
I’m not on letrozole so have no experience to share on that. Good luck with the mammogram. x
sleeping - my GP has prescribed zopiclone. I only take it Friday-Sunday nights. It’s not a buildup up drug and helps me get a good restorative sleep on those nights. I don’t wake up groggy. I choose to cope with the insomnia during the week so that I can take the full dose on the weekends - helps me face each week (so far).
, so now am with respiratory team too…more biopsies to be done there. I’m finding it difficult to raise the fog…