Self doubt!

Is there anyone else out there who has had a similar experience to me. I was first diagnosed in1995 aged 37, grade 3, 2cm tumour, 2 lymph nodes affected. Treated WLE, chemo and rads. 20 years clear then diagnosed again from mamogram. This time other breast, grade 3, two small tumours =1.9cms ER/PR- but HER 2+. Treatment WLE plus re excision, chemo, rads plus one year of herceptin. Had BRCA test but negative. Problem for me is I have the history and still have my breasts. Now I feel very vulnerable and doubt my decision to keep my breasts. Some days I feel that I should have asked for a bilateral mastectomy and recon as I just can’t face the stress of the yearly mammograms and results. I feel that there must be a genetic fault for me to have had two primaries so far apart.

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Hi Sofadays

 

I have not had a second dx but I wanted to say I know some of what you are feeling. I too was -ve for the BRCA1 &2 . At my meeting with the genetics nurse she quite clearly stated that BRCA 1 & 2 are not the only genes related to breast cancer. They already know that there are several more, they just haven’t identified them yet. So I feel that I probably have a gene for the cancer and maybe in 10-20 years that that will prove to be the case. But until then I cannot act on what ifs and maybes.

 

I do worry about a recurrence and every time I get a health issue I automatically think it’s the cancer again. I never used to be anxious in this way before the dx, in fact I really had convieniently forgotten that there is a history of breast cancer in my family, though that was probably a blessing.

 

Take care

 

Mary