Hi girlies, just thought I would add my bit cos not having a good day
STMBT of…
feeling tired
feeling guilty all the time (for my kids)
CRYING!
Sore throat which wont go
Worry
Dread of starting chemo
Tyring to decide when to buy a wig
Trying to decide when to have my hair cut short
Angry
THINKING
BREAST CANCER
Also doing Race for Life tomorrow and I know im gonna be an emotional wreck and although Im really glad Im doing it (did it last year and already booked this years event before my dx in April 2011)
ive been crying all day dont really know why.
Feeling slightly better now sorry for the rant xxxx
There are many things to be ‘sick to the back teeth of’ - I know this - but many of the things you have mentioned need to be just accepted. This doesn’t mean they’re not rubbish, they are, but don’t let the bugg@rs get you down.
Get angry with the Cancer, get angry with all the rubbish that goes with it but don’t let yourself get sick of it just yet. It’s hard but doable, it seems too much but you Will do it.
I know mine are so pathetic compared to what other ladies have got going on but im just so SCARED!and need someone to just tell me everything is gonna be ok xxx
I’m not saying stop because of other people, I’m saying stop for you’re own sanity. What you’re going through is truly awful, I was dx in nov, but please, please don’t give in yet.
Get your hair cut, buy a wig, have chemo - I promise it will pass, you will cope and you will find strength that you didn’t know you had.
having my follow up, getting my results and treatment plan appointment postponed with less then 24 hours notice and then my family wondering why I got upset!
mentally getting dressed in the morning, mentally doing lots of nice things and physically still sat here 5 hours later still in my PJ’s, having not moved very far, except to take next lot of anti-puke pills.
Traffic wardens. Broken laptop, popped into shop to pick it up, traffic warden pounced on my car. The nearest car park to the shop was just a bit too far for me to carry two laptops so I’d left my car in a contract car park just round the corner. Can’t have been in there more than 5 minutes. £35 to park the car for 5 minutes? Not a happy camper.
Work again! Seriously thinking about whether I have a case for constructive dismissal. I am not being supported, I have been replaced and am ignored. Boss even issued a project team chart showing the consultant as the lead and me alongside my part- time employee …
Sorry, just need to rant somewhere - what do I do, just go sick now until chemo is over? Not sure I can carry on with trying to work like this - I WANT MY JOB, MY RESPONSIBILITIES AND MY LIFE BACK!
no apologies Lucy, honest, chemo brain is to blame for my forgetfulness, we all know how fickle technology can be as well - especially when you want it to work.
Feeling queasy again with arrival of dairy intolerance - would love a decent cuppa coiffee…
Ditto sleep mazbaz, I was up 5am and managed to get a few zzzz’s from 7am.
Worrying about whether I can/should go back to work or retire (pushing 64) and whether this past year will be used to reduce the amount of voluntary redundancy I will be entitled to.
Getting letters from various hospitals/institutions I’ve been to since last Aug when I initially delved into my BC journey (when both mother and younger sister were going through BC treatment last year) who aren’t up-to-date with my current situation. I’ve had mammogram appt today for both breasts next month and I had a mx back in March - bl**dy peasants.