lump detected on 10th may, gp on 12th, clinic booked for 19th.
totally convinced this is going to be benign, dont seem to be worried about it at all. ok its a big event, always at the back or front of my mind,a bit like a new job interview, but not a totally devistating event.
so why every now and again do i suddenly well up with tears?? Am I in total denial and occasionally reality breaks through.
there must be lots of text book reactions to this sort of news. i wonder if anyone has done a study.
You keep nearly crying because where you are is very, very scary.
I don’t know of any studies, but been there, done that, got the t-shirt, and it’s a horrible feeling.
It WILL be better once you’ve gone to the clinic, particularly if they’re able to settle your fears immediately.
I had a lump 7 years ago (I was 41 at the time) and that scared the wits out of me. When I had a mammogram and ultrasound they detected a cyst which they drained there and then. Job done, no follow-up, no need for any further testing because it was very clearly a cyst and behaved just like a cyst does. And that was the end of it. So when I detected another lump in December last year I thought (hoped) that it would be the same. And as it turns out, what I felt WAS another cyst, they just happened to find something else as well which wasn’t.
But waiting for an appointment at the clinic is a scary time and you can’t just put it out of your mind, can you, and late at night when you can’t get to sleep is horrible. But you will SOON be in a better place when you know what’s what. It’s the not knowing that is really horrible.
Have a hug
CM
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