Firstly hello to you all, please can someone help me…I have had event after event this year health wise & I think this is the last straw…
I will try and keep it brief so here goes -
Approximately 3 years ago I was referred to the breast clinic after I found a lump and loads of bumps, I then whilst I was waiting for my appointment at the breast clinic I decided to see a Private breast specialist whom said my breasts were normal & lumpy. I attended the clinic appointment, they did an ultrasound and had a through feel, was then diagnosed with fatty tissue & normal lumpy breasts (more so on the left one),ive recently started to feel this lump again but I swear its bigger and feels more fixed to the muscle or gland (I do not know), the tissue has seemed to have gotten thicker too, im scared the lump or tissue has turned or has been cancer all along, my right breast feels fine, I can feel lumps on the right one but the tissue is no where near as thick as the left one. This lump I can feel is like a grape, I can press it right down and move it all around, when I feel around on the same breast I can feel more or less similar ones but not as big as this particular one! When I lay down and feel the left breast the tissue is thick however when i stand up and feel both breasts they feel the same…(I am so confused)… Lastly, my aunt had breast cancer years ago & had a masectomy of the one breast
Please anyone, ive been prodding for days now…I suffer with major heath anxiety! I have an appointment with my GP on Thursday however I tried to get an appoinmetn with my GP the Thursday just gone and she called me, she noted the site has been ultrasounded a few years ago and she said these things need to be checked but did not class me as an emergency…I am totally freaking out…
I am a relative newbie here but i too have “lumpy” breasts…try not to panic…which is easier said than done i know. Like lady bowler sayd try to either ring the clinic or ring your gp and request a urgent referral…tell them its chriustmas and you dont want this hanging over you. Lets hope it gets sorted soon.x
I have such bad anxiety i really do. Ive just had a colonoscopy end Oct as i had stomach issues. Plus so many other procedures… and now this AGAIN. Plus i got married 7 weeks ago :(. I really cant handle this. Sorry to waffle on, im only 36 also! So sorry!
Thanks for all the messages,yes still seeing he GP on Thursday, im terrified of what she says to me! Im crying uncontrollably and so depressed, I do suffer from depression and severe anxiety just the very thought of being told something i dont want to hear scares the living daylights out of me, im so convinced its something sinister… im feeling it all the time and it must be bad as the left has more tissue and this lump than the right… what else could it possibly be… im so fuzzy headed right now. I feel stupid for ranting and being so afraid
I sleep and wake up and its the first thing i think of, every spare minute im feeling it in all different ways and angles, frustration is doing my head in too right now. Google is my only friend right but even that it making me hyperventilate
yes, Kayanne, google will make you hyperventilate, so as those of us who’ve been there now know, its better to step away from it. If you want information then use this site, or talk things through with the helpline.
ann x
I am the king of looking up things from google and going into panic mode. Ann is right, it can cause hyperventilating.
The thing with google is this: The majority of websites that will pop up when you search are not real medical websites, they’re journalism sites that repost regurgitated (true or false) information over and over again. Yes, their intention is good, but the information they host is not necessarily true or up to date.
Over the years, the successful treatment of cancer has improved significantly, yet the majority of websites that pop up when I google are displaying outdated information. Stage 1 and 2 breast cancers are now considered curable, but google will tell you otherwise. So be careful!
It’s easier said than done, I know. I know how scary it is, and I know how googling makes you feel somewhat in control of it all.
I understand what you saying, feels like i need to be locked up and put in a room where i cant google and prod all the time. Im having such a hard time right now, my anxiety is making me feel like im in a very dark place, its so terrible, and now i have to cope with another possibility of bad news.
Kayanne, I’m just going to look up another thread for you, a person who was posting very recently…have a read through and you will certainly recognise the way you are feeling. She also had some of the anxiety issues you describe. I know she is quite different in age to you, over 10 years younger, but I still think it might help you. Although we of course can’t say your outcome will be the same as hers, there are some really really good ressponses on there from other forums users (not just talking about myself here lol !) that could help you to rationalise the situation. I’ll be back with it shortly…
I just wanted you to know that you aren’t alone in you anxious feelings, and there are lots of people that come here feeling the same as you do now. There is some good advice on there too (7 pages of the thread) about rationalising if it is actually a form of breast cancer.
Just to say i also have severe anxiety, and although I really hope you get good results from this and statistically you have more chance of it being benign, the reality of receiving the bad news isn’t actually as bad as the waiting trust me! I was diagnosed with bc in oct after a three month back and forth for tests and after surgery I’m clear with just radiotherapy to go so what I’m saying is whatever the result and I really hope it’s good you will get through it. I went to my gp and was given diazepam for the early days after diagnosis although they weren’t very effective there are ways of managing the anxiety. Also make sure your gp does refer you to the breast clinic. Rebecca x
Waiting and the anxiety is a test me have all been or are going through. The days drag and for some reason we turn to google —
I tried to so hard to resist constantly looking stuff up - I made this forum one of my ‘favourite’ home page so my google urges were met by really good advice by people that have been in your position.
It’s also good to put some control back in your life - even if it means doing little tasks during the day. It gives your emotional side of your brain time to recover.
We know exactly what this is like - and we are here to help.