Hi all
Feel a need to air my worry’s with you lovely ladies. There’s no one I can talk to at home, as I think family and friends feel that as I’ve had all my treatment then I should be fine. But I can’t help worrying that its going to come back. Have pains in my armpit and surrounding area in my good side and I know it’s probably muscular but can’t help thinking the worse. Hate feeling like this. Hate that the cancer is still defining me. Need to move on, but struggling .
Hugs xx
Hi Sue,
I completely understand how you’re feeling, it’s so hard to get away from that all consuming fear of recurrence, but it does lessen over time. How much treatment have you had and when did you finish? Have you had your annual mammogram on good side yet? This although horrendous whilst waiting for results, does give reassurance when it is clear. This is a great place to air fears and share experiences though as we do tend to want to spare our nearest and dearest from our worries! Sending hugs xx
Sue
Well this is the right place to do it in the comfort of knowing that we can totally relate to what you are feeling.
Oh my dear I am sure all of us who have now finished active treatment know exactly how you feel. No matter how many times we are told that the cancer has gone as a result of the treatment we have had, there is always that fear. I know myself a couple of weeks ago I had a really bad pain in my side and back on the opposite side from my op, I was terrified that I had it somewhere else, turns out I had a kidney infection, something I normally get and would never have thought anything about before I was diagnosed, but now well!!
Have you thought about having some counselling to see if that might help you? Is there a Moving Forward course in your area that you might be able to attend?
Sending you a hug xxxxx
Hi Sue, I’m 2 years on from diagnosis now and actually have my second year mammogram in the morning and I can honestly say I’m feeling fine about it, last year I would rather have stuck pins in my eyes but I’ve moved on from there now and can see it as the safety net it is, of course the fear of reacurrance will always be lurking but I won’t let it control me, cancer takes enough from us but I refuse to let it take over everything I do!
Life is precious so fight back and enjoy every minute! Xx
I finished chemo in January, had a double mastectomy on 28th Feb and thought that it would be over. Was told yesterday that I need hormone injections every three months and take medication daily for at least 10 years. I feel crest fallen. My husband and youngest son have gone away for 4 nights skiing and I am a nervous wreck - this isn’t me, I’m normally strong and positive but I just can get the feeling out of my head that this is no way near over. Is this normal??
Hi Sue,
Again it is the uncertainty of waiting that’s such a pain to deal with, but at least they are looking into it. Hopefully, all will be well.
ann x
Hi Sue
Just wanted to say I’m so glad your scan was ok xx
Hi Sue. So pleased you were able to get some support - hope you are relaxing now and the sun is shining where you are xx