Feeling very weepy, dont know why i havent logged on before, I think ive now got to a point where i dont want to tell my husband how im feeling cos its all negative and getting us both down.
Ive been on epi/cmf four of each but it feels like the cmf bit is 8 cos its spread over 2 weeks and makes me feel gross. Ive got 1 more cmf to go but i call it 8a and 8b one on the 12th Oct and one on 19th although its nearly over i just want to cry cos i dont want to do the last one.
Hi flushpuppy
I remember that total feeling of despair that I had just prior to chemo number 4. I didn’t think I could go through with it and broke down in a puddle of tears. But I did find the strength to pick myself back up and go and face the chemo again…and the next one…and the next one.
I’ve now finished chemo and had 25 rads plus 5 boosters. I thought it would never end…but finally my life is no longer all about hospitals and side effects.
Sending you a big cyber hug and offering a virtual shoulder to have a good cry on.
Sue xx
Thank you so much for your kind words and support it has really helped. Sometimes you think your on your own because despite all the family and friends support they cant take it away and they cant really understand how you are feeling.
No wonder I was feeling down I ended up with a temp on Tuesday was sent to the hospital for my bloods and I was nutroponic (new word to me) but obviously no white blood cells, ended up on two lots of antibiotics but fortunately let me stay at home.
Just starting to pick up again slowly, just have to keep reminding myself not to do too much.
Hi. I’m glad that you’re feeling a bit brighter.
You were lucky that the hospital let you go home. I managed to get right through chemo without any major problems, and I was feeling really pleased with myself, but then, on Day 14 after my last chemo I started running a temperature and didn’t feel right at all…they kept me in hospital for 5 days on IV antibiotics. I wasn’t happy!
Thankfully that’s all in the past now.
Good luck for parts 8a and 8b. It’ll be over before you know it 
Sue xx
Thanks Sue
Its nice to hear from someone who’s come out the other side, Im so close now, feeling bit better again today.
Managed to get off the loo long enough to go to my 6 yr olds parents eve yesterday. Had to make sure I didnt eat anything for a couple of hours before we went (the things you do for your kids).
They are going to give me 25 rads plus boosters, the general feel I get is that the rads are much easier than the chemo and my hospital is only a 20 min drive away which makes it a lot easier for me than for some.
Feeling a lot more positive, thanks
Nicki x