Hi all. In the last two months I’ve had two operations to remove DCIS in one breast. Have stayed positive mostly throughout (even shocked myself with that!) I’ve got my planning appointment coming up and I’m now starting to feel very apprehensive. Can’t put my finger on why - have had great support and feel well informed, but just can’t shake it. Can it really only just be sinking in that I’ve had cancer? X
Hi Janette
It is completely normal to feel like that … I also had 2 ops in May as didn’t have a clear margin then 4 months of chemo and now start rads on Monday and I have had a terrible week with anxiety… You will have day when you don’t think about it hardly at all and other days you can’t just shake the appreciation off on these days I just try to keep busy watch rubbish TV …we will all get through this … Take care xxx
Hi Jeanette. Don’t worry I felt the same before rads. I think the operations just feel like operations if that makes sense and then comes the TREATMENT word which feels a bit more like the cancer thing! I have 6 of 19 left to go and it’s not been too bad thus far. My boob is very pink, itchy and tender but liveable. Have started to feel tired and can barely keep my eyes open after 8.30. The travelling back and too everyday is doing my head in. The staff where I am ( Edinburgh ) have been fantastic which helps. I hadn’t really spoken to anyone other than my family and health team until a week or so ago. If I ignored it long enough it might not be real sort of thing! Everybody as far as I can see gets down, angry, scared, lonely and any other emotion you could possibly have. I personally am just going with whatever comes crying when I need, getting on with living when I can and drinking good red wine the rest of the time!!?
Take care and just go with it ( we don’t get a choice anyway!! )
Dawn xx