sorry i have not been for a while found it hard to get my head around everything had the snb which is clear plastic surgeon told me that cos there is no clear margins that they have no idea if any other treatment it needed i’m told cos im not ample that silver lining is i will get a boob job on the nhs i’m not seeing this as a silver lining not sure if maybe i should in a place right now where i’m not sure who i am any more which is hard for me i’m an active 39 year old who gets on with life normally but finding it hard three locals and two generals restricted to what i can do and totally lost probably for the first time in my life
Hi babes367
I’m sorry to read that you are having a pretty tough time at the moment. I’m sure the users of this site will be along to support you soon.
In the meantime maybe you would like to talk to a member of our helpline staff who are there to offer emotional support as well as practical information. The free phone number is 0808 800 600 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 9.00 to 2.00.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator
Hi Babes,
I don’t really use the site much these days either- but I noticed your post and it struck a cord with me.
I was diagnosed in October 2010, and have recently had a recon, rounding off 18 months of treatment (chemo, mx, rads, herceptins, oophrectomy). I can vividly remember how I felt after my diagnosis, and at some points along the way - that feeling of being ‘lost’ or losing yourself is something many of us have felt I think. When I was diagnosed I had never felt fitter, or more healthy. I was not overweight, I was fit and active - with all the stamina and energy I needed. I am the first to admit that I am a bit of a control freak, and not being able to do what I have wanted to do, has been very difficult at times.
But, during this time- of enforced reflection- i have gained a greater insight about my personality, as well as learning a bit more patience! But it is hard, very hard. At times you may feel angry, scared, lost or sad. Being told to in some way feel ‘grateful’ for a ‘free boob job’ must have been very difficult to hear. And when you feel like this, it is difficult to imagine feeling any better, or stronger - but somehow it does happen! Be kind to yourself, and don’t worry about relying on other people a bit more, and talking to the people around you about your feelings.
I hope this helps a bit, I’m sure others will be along shortly with words of wisdom xx
thanks tsr for your comments sometimes you sit and feel alone then i remembered the first time i came on that it felt better to know other people have been here and i’m not a person to talk i try to keep things to myself rather than burden loved ones with my thoughts so maybe i should try talking more i feel angry that because i’m not well endowed that surely it can’t matter that much but its still part of me that i’m losing and i don’t feel people understand that my nurse who is great appologised for my breast surgeons comments but it still hurt and made me angry i seem to be taking my feelings out on those around me which is’nt fair cos none of this is their fault maybe i’ll feel better once the mx is over hopefully
The MX is a huge thing to have on your horizon - I know in a lot of ways I felt better just to have it over and done with. I hope you feel better soon. If you continue to struggle, why not call the helpline at BCC, or access some of the cancer support services in your area? There is no shame in asking for help xx
well antibiotics must be working first day i have able to do anything in ages 8 days now to mx still nervous but feel a bit better than i did last week feel a bit more like myself today