Hi
Just feeling really down just now. I finshed chemo in July and rads on 14th September. I am now taking Tamoxifen. The last couple of weeks I had been starting to feel a bit like my old self but this week I am feeling really yuk. Yesterday body hurt all over and today I have the headache from h**l and feel just generally off colour.
I suppose what I want to know is if I am just coming down with something or if these off days are normal after all the treatment? I know it sounds silly but I am not used to being ill and feel frustrated that I am not getting better day by day like I expected!!
Viv x
I think we all feel a bit ‘blah’ after treatment. We have all this attention and the regime of hospital appointments and then we’re set adrift without the support we are used to having. Your poor body has taken an enormous battering and it will take time to recover so take it one step at a time. The side-effects of Tamoxifen will settle down over time, promise!
AlexG
Hi Viv,
Its really early days for you but I know thats the last thing you want to hear just now,I remember when i was at your stage this time last year that I felt quite fragile and yucky a couple of days a week,at the moment Im coming up to my 2yr anniversary of diagnosis and I feel incredibly well. I dont have the stamina that I had pre-chemo and I still have arm problems but Tamoxifen suits me well and I feel as though Im really starting to leave BC behind me,so be kind to yourself,eat a bar of chocolate every day(not really,just a half)and have patience. Wishing you well,love Mags xx BTW,I thought rads were the hardest to recover from and I seemed more prone to stomach probs after they finished,I still cant tolerate anti-inflammatories pills.
Thank you lovely ladies for your replies. I suppose I just I have to be patient. I think the thing thats bothering me is I am due to return to work at the beginning of November and I am looking forward to it but if I feel like I do this week I won’t be (and boss won’t be too pleased) Also I am going on holiday to Aruba at the end of this month and really want to feel well…although I only plan to sit by the pool (in the shade of course!!).
Viv x x
Hi Viv
I’m glad you posted. I’m feeling exactly the same as you. I finished chemo in June and rads mid August. I thought I’d be feeling fairly normal by now but the fatigue seems to be getting worse not better! I’m currently receiving Employment Support Allowance, but next month I will be having a medical assessment in which, they will declare me “fit for work”.
Some days I find it almost impossible to crawl out of bed so I dread to think how I will be able to cope with working full time.
Like you, I’ve got a holiday booked for the end of the month, so I guess we can only hope we’ll both come home with batteries fully recharged and fighting fit!!
Sue xx
HI Sue
I will keep my fingers crossed for both of us. Hope you have a lovely holiday.
Viv x
Ladies I think your all very right - also why not have a blah day? We have been through hell and back - no I didnt get the Emp. Support allowance either and I just wanted the support to get back to work! Its been a year for me and sometimes if I dont feel so good one day I just accept it - why shouldnt I and then I feel a little better in myself that I allowed myself to rest up - its a new day tomorrow.
Treat yourselves to time, rest and being allowed to feel what you feel without guilt. We are human, feeling woman - break out the chocolate, walk around the park, listen to music - whatever it is just do it.
Mine is a cheesecake from M&S he he
xx
oooo cheesecake sounds good 
Viv x