Hi Carole, Good luck for today. I hope all goes well. Let us know though as we all want to know how you got on. Love Val
Just phoned up my oncās secretary at the Newcastle hospital i went to for the bone scan and recent appointment with the onc / tumour marker test etc etcā¦ She said they havnāt got the bone scan results back yet but she knows my onc wants to talk to me when they get those results inā¦ not sure whether to start some major panicing as my onc has never wanted to personally discuss results with me in two yearsā¦ (hoping they just do things differently at the newcastle unit to how it works at my usual unit here in Northumberlandā¦ the usual pattern here has been i have scanā¦ wait agesā¦ leave a message on the bcn answer machine and a bcn phones up 2 days later and says āit was fineā¦ā)
Theresa x
Oh Theresa, I can imagine how you must be feeling. If it were me I would ring again and explain how you are - and see if she can tell you if it is just routine or not to see patients. Thinking of you and sending lots of positive thoughts. ((((hugs)))).
Victoria xxx
Hi guys. Blinkinā freezing up here today. Brrrr.
Anyway, the good news is I can trust my gut. The bad news is my gut was correct and I am the statistic. Yep, itās back. Small tumour in the other boob. Got to get various scans to find out if itās a new primary (my gut says it is and has done for weeks now), or a spread, ie secondary. So, loads of fun appointments for the next few weeks, and surgery likely in 4 weeksā time. Which is good news as Iām in the play in 2 weeks, and kind of need my boobs to fill out the costume! 
Fingers crossed itās a primary. Roll on the B cups thatās all I can say. Top guy does the recon and is very good apparently. Ooph will follow in due course. No idea if I need chemo yet.
The fun just never ends! 
caroleā¦shit, bummer, **** and the rest ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) donāt know what else to say, weāre here for you as everā¦mary xx
Oh mate I donāt know what to say. Lots of expletives, obviously. Just got in from work and logged straight on to see what had occurred. Damn, bugger and blast. Will try to give you a bell later.
I canāt print here what my reaction was to your news, Carole, but Iām sure you can imagine! What more can I say? Thinking of you as always. xx
Carole - so sorry to hear the newsā¦
sending you loads of hugs and Steel type slaps on the backā¦ then more hugsā¦
Theresa x
Carole - so, so sorry to hear your news. Loads and loads of hugs. As you know we are here for you always.
Love Clare X
Carole, I am so sorryā¦ I have every bone in my body crossed that your gut instinct is right and itās a new primary. Massive hugs(((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))).
Cassey, strides up to the boss and knees him straight in the B####CKS!!!
Screaming I hate you! I hate you! I HATE YOU!!! The SRāS circle Steel, wrapping her in a blanket of love. We are here for you Carole, Day and night.
Jane xx
Ha! Just wait till you see what Steel does to him. Lol!
Thanks guys. And Iāll be here for you all for a damn sight longer than this pesky varmint thinks it can cut me too.
Iāll be hanging around all day and this evening. This is my indulgence time before whupping some ass from am tomorrow.
Just got in and logged on to see the newsā¦bl**dy crap, damn and sod it!! and the rest!!! We are all here for you Caroleā¦you know we areā¦you go and kick some major butt!!Hoping thatā¦sounds stupidā¦but that it is a primary!! With you all the way girlā¦
Humongus amount of {{[hugs}}}
Theresa {{hugs}} and good thoughts your way tooā¦
Helenxxx
Just in and so sorry to hear this, Carole.
Your instincts were right first time, so hopefully will be again and it is a new primary. Everything crossed for this. Echoing what others have said; we are here for you.
Hugs for Carole and a gruff thump on the shoulder for Steel.
Hugs to you too, Theresa. Hopefully just routine, especially as she said they donāt have the results yet.
Eliza xx
Carole - canāt wait to see what Steel does to himā¦ xxx
Do you have any idea how big the new lump is etcā¦? Sorry i canāt remember what your first one was like as it was before my time on the threadā¦ I take it you are going for a mastectomy this timeā¦? It is going to be mighty busy in those treatment rooms with us all in there with the horses and the rest of the animalsā¦ xxx
Helen - thanks havnāt heard anything - but i know my onc does her clinic in the rads dept on a Tuesday so wouldnāt expect to hear anything yetā¦
Theresa x
So very sorry indeed Carole about the result. Hoping it is another primary like you say and can be dealt with really quickly. What a nightmare this disease is. It just never ends. If it were me Iād ask for double mx this time, that way you are not left in a limbo state of not knowing whether it will come back or not, as a primary at least. Hopefully though as it was picked up on an annual scan it will be really early stages.
If thereās anything at all I can do, just ask.
Victoria xxxxxx
Hi all,
crock of you know what!! Carole, but hopefully spotted early and can be dealt with quickly. You are right Victoria, it never ends. It will be a long time before any of us are completely free of worries. Theresea, hope you get some good news soon. As I said, i am playing the waiting game but trying not to think about it.
Jacq, hope it was ok today.
Hugs to all.
linda
They estimate it as somewhere 4mm to 6mm, so tiny. My first was 3cm. Absolutely - double mastectomy, immediate recon if poss, and after I recover from that, an ooph. Plus whatever aesthetic stuff I can get them to throw in there for free. Doubt I can convince them on a nose job, but I do have a couple of little cysts on my legs that Iād like vamoosed! 
Hmm, wonder if we can throw in some laser therapy on my spider veins while Iām under. How hard can it beā¦
Just want to add - you are all amazing, but I know how hard this will be for you all to hear. Not that itās me, not at all, but that one of us got it back. It wasnāt a nice possibility for us to face, and it isnāt a nice reality, but the stats said it was likely. Be strong SRs. This was a storm that was coming somewhere along the line. You will not all ride it. Donāt think that you will. Believe that you wonāt. With a bit of luck, this is mine alone to ride (with a lot of gun slinging help of course :D). Keep riding for Normality or whatever horizon grabs your heart. And, just to be sure, when I get round to putting up the next instalments, they are not increasing in number because of this. Steel will ride out with the rest of you, just with maybe a touch of indulgence on her thoughts, a soliloquy perhaps - touches the thespian in me
Theresa - go girl. When you get that appointment, never falter. Believe!
Victoria, didnāt say - swit swooooo! Hi there pretty lady.
Everybody else Iāve forgotten, sorry. Will catch up.
Oh Carole, I am so sorry it was not better news for you. But you are a strong lady and you have a huge army of ladies around to give you some moral support. Which hospital do you attend for your treatment?
Theresa, I am sorry you are in limbo land and donāt know all the answers yet. I hate the waiting game the mostā¦so hope it is nothing to worry about and thinking of you too.
I had to return today to have ultrasound as something was showing up on my recent mammogramā¦on my good side. Had to then go for more mammogramsā¦another wait and yet another oneā¦but it was worth the waitā¦THERE IS NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUTā¦they maanaged to locate my old mammograms this afternoonā¦odd eh?..from 2002 and 2004 ( Goodness knows where the others have been filed)ā¦and the image they could see is just āmeā and showed up on the old scansā¦so I can give a big sigh of reliefā¦and get on with my life againā¦
So all my energy is going on everyone here. Take care and hope there is more good news to read on here from now onā¦love Val
We,re amazingā¦You are one hell of a lady Carole, just by fighting this the way you do and thinking of us at the same time.
Sorry Iāve been AWOL again still got MIL with us but I have had a quick skim and sending lots of possitive vibes to Theresa, Linda, and all those waiting to hear news. Also Jacq and Val for todayās appointments.
Its my bed time now but if you canāt sleep and want to chat at 3am Carole, you have my mobile number. Iāll be up from 02.45am. Iāve got my guns cocked and Iām ready for a good old gun slinging match.
Love you all xx
Excellent Val! Way to go! Wishaw General
Chuckle! Told you Iād be hanging about today. How selfish am I! NO DONāT ANSWER THAT.
Oh, got some patchouli oil recently. Does anybody still wear it? (did you ever?). I am totally going hippy boho this summer.
Donāt worry Jane, you can sleep. Iāll be in an alcohol fuelled fug tonight. Then itās bye bye to that particular carcinogenic. Sob!!!