Hi. I have had a rubbish day today. I went to the hospital yesterday to talk through lumpectomy options (wasn’t paying enough attention in the first appointment) so that made it all ‘real’ again. I am feeling really wiped out and exhausted. This morning I had to get up early and go to see a really difficult client in london which is always a pain, so spent two hours getting there and back in rush hour (so of course no seats on the way home). Also we are trying to sell our business (since before I was diagnosed) was supposed to be the end of this month and today the buyer effectively pulled out sl my other half is at breaking point without all that is going on with me. The business has been sapping our finances recently as our minds have been elsewhere, I don’t work there and I am the main bread winner so we will be stretched even more if I only get ssp. My arm has still been really sore after the lymph node biopsy, this week i have had a pain under my boob, which I was convinced was another tumour, aftef a poke I can feel a vein so now think it is mondors disease (I have the lines from the lymph node down to it too). Of course my tumour is on the right and I am right handed so that doesn’t help. It is really sore after my trip home from London with my laptop. And my dog keeps licking his back leg so I am convinced he has something terrible wrong with him.
Sorry for the ‘dump’ posting just feeling sorry for myself. I would normally be at yoga tonight but got home too late, really could have done with going tonight.