Have no idea where to start, I am 38 and this is a whirlwind and the last month has been horrendous with waiting for results. I am not one to suffer with anxiety but this has definitely taken its toll on me, I also suffer with extremely bad eczema so the stress is just making this ten times worse.
I went to the doctors at the end of November as I felt a hard area in my right breast, wasn’t overly concerned until the doctor referred me to breast clinic for a scan. That’s when the anxiety started. Two week’s after my doctors appointment I had an ultrasound and was told I needed a biopsy which they did straight away. I left with an appointment for the following week for my results. That week felt like a year. My heart was in my mouth and every time the door opened for them to call someone in my hands started to sweat. Me and my husband were put in a room, was told to put a gown on as the doctor will want to check the biopsy has healed ok. We sat and waited and again felt like forever then 3 of them walked in, a nurse, the doctor and his assistant - just knew it was bad news by how many of them there were.
I was told I had cancer in the upper quadrant on my right breast, it was 37mm, grade 2 and was ductal + DCIS. Unfortunately the results for ER/HER2 hadn’t come back so he went through an entire plan based on each scenario. The doctor was amazing and made me feel at ease with what he had put together. I had a biopsy under my arm which came back clear but he wanted it to be done again, as I mentioned I suffer with bad eczema and occasionally lymph nodes swell so I am just hoping this is because of this and comes back clear again - anybody else had to have a biopsy re taken?
I have my appointment on the 5th to find out the results of the receptors, I have called to see if they are back and have been told the ER is positive but still waiting on the HER2 to come back.
Waiting is just horrible, the thought of the unknown is making me feel like every little ache and pain is the cancer spreading, I have had the worst tension headache whilst waiting, just has really knocked the smoke out of me.
I have two kids ages 10 + 16 and they don’t know yet, my daughter has her GCSE’s next year and just feel such a bad person upsetting her. 
A lot of my friends have friends my daughters age so feel like I cannot talk to them as I just cannot risk her finding out until we know the full picture. Brain is just going crazy at the minute.
