Hi, this is my first post - I have been trying to come to terms with the symmetry of my reconstruction, but just want to know if I’m normal to have these feelings and if anybody has had the same experience, so I have plucked up the courage to post this message!
I feel I should be grateful and happy, (which I am!), that I am now cancer free, but am trying to mentally come to terms with what has happened over the last two years. One of the things I am struggling with is my cosmetic results but I am hoping in time that I will get used to the new me! I had smx with immediate DIEP reconstruction just over two years ago and have mixed feelings over the results, the reconstruction is very natural and everything has healed very well, but the symmetry is not good, I feel so lopsided, the reconstructed breast is at least two cup sizes bigger than my good breast and so I have to wear a prosthetic on my good side just to feel ‘even’, my PS has offered either a reduction on my reconstructed breast or an enlargement with implant on my good breast - although I’m feeling unhappy with the difference in size I don’t feel I want to go through anymore surgery. I went through 12 hours of surgery so that I could feel as natural as possible and if I wanted an implant as is suggested for the healthy breast then I wouldn’t have gone through the lengthy surgery for my DIEP - has anyone else experienced this dilemma and does anyone else have to wear a prosthetic on their healthy side? If I knew there were ladies out there like me, I wouldn’t feel so abnormal - it just seems ironic that I have to wear a prosthetic on my healthy side - look forward to hearing from anyone who may have experienced similar x