Hi All had biopsy an d internal ultrasound two weeks ago , results have come back inconclusive have to have hysteroscopy and D&C , the waiting is absolute bl/dy hell again. It was bad enough going through BC but now this, it’s all a nightmare. I have had slight bleeding and My gp thinks it’s due to TAM more than cancer but obviously have to get checked out. Has anyone had similiar problems and changed hormones to stop the problem mor to the point has it worked. I have only been on Tam six months. Wish I could have a problem with my big toe it’s always my personal bits that play up , so fed up being prodded and poked about. Don’t think my body belongs to me anymore. I am so deppressed have no motivation (post men age 62) does anyone ever think Oh blow it I’ll take whatever comes and keep away from s*****g hospitals
Bobbie
i have done exactly that i’m afraid. i was diagnosed in jan 2007. i had a partial mastectomy and reconstruction followed by rad and tamoxifen. the last time i saw an oncologist was in october 2007. i have had nothing apart from a mammogram since. (btw, that was absolute damn agony cos it is all still healing, and it was clear).
furthermore, and this worries me, i have not had a smear test in over 10 years.
i live in spain and have done so for over 5 years. i’ve used the excuse of the frustrating bureaucracy in the medical system here and the fact that i’ve moved just not to bother doing anything positive.
i don’t have any friends close to me. my husband and i are separated. my parents didn’t even come and see me when i was going through it and so i’m just not motivated enough to do it off my own bat!
sometimes i worry. i’m sure we all have moments. i know i will at some stage get things sorted out and have some tests and at least stay around to get an all clear.
i do know what you mean - especially as it is our female bits that are involved here. nevertheless, you have to leave your femininity at the doorstep when you start having cancer treatment and if it keeps you alive, it’s a small price to pay don’t you think?
i know it must be unbearable to wait for the results - AGAIN!!! but, you can do it though. you owe it to yourself 
let us know how it goes?
Hi Corsa
Nothing they do to you is ever without side-effects, is it, it’s such a drag.
I had terrible bleeding (ended up in hospital in the end as I was haemorraghing so badly) with Tamoxifen, which I was only put on because during my oopherectomy a piece of ovarian tissue was left behind (and couldn’t be found). (The phrases ‘Celebration in a beer-making factory’ + ‘organise’ came to mind).
I think the bleeding happens to a lot of people on this drug. I had 3 D&Cs - target practice for newly-qualified gynaes, methinks - before they gave me a hysterectomy, which was an utter relief, I have to say.
Know what you mean about hospitals; I’m sick of the sight of them myself, even the clean, well-organised ones with no rip-off parking and good staff.
I didn’t change medication after this - it was before AIs were around, but I imagine alternatives might have been suggested had there been any.
Hope it all goes well for you.
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Hi Roxanne and Bahons …Thanks for getting back to me . Roxanne please go and get your check ups do’nt bury your head in the sand. I am with you all the way and now how you feel because I want to run and run and say NO MOre!!! I have a one year old grandchild and I just have to go on to see her grow up
Bahons You have been through the bl/dy mill, Gynae did say if he finds anything sinister will have oopherectomy and ovaries removed whilst I am having hysteroscopy and D&C. Going in Tues 17th original date was 25th Feb but they had a cancellation so rang me today. I am very scared but do’nt really know why, cuz at the moment I refuse to think of cancer. If it is Tam causing this Onc said he will change me to Arimedix but he did state that it does cause joint pains… Have enough of them without having a substance to make it worse. Bl/dy Bc will it ever end , I thought when I finished my treatment I am gonna get on with my life and NOT fret about BC coming back but then other things come along… WILL IT EVER end, the constant anxiety is sending me loopy.
Lots of love to you both and thanks for taking the time to get back to me …Keep in touch Love Bobbiexx
Hi Bobby
All the best for Tuesday, try not to worry(stupid thing to say I know).
Don’t know why your onc. has not switched you to an AI with al the trouble you have been having.
Alicex
Hi Alice Onc said he might do that when he gets results from Gynae.
Everything is playing on my min. BUT you will never believe what is getting me down having to bear all again… and those bl/dy stirrups. I will be under GA so why.??? Going in this Tues due to cancellation. I do not know how I’m gonna do it I am so scared.
Love Bobbie Lvely to hear from you again. How you doing???
Go for it, Corsa, you can do it. Have you ever tried thinking of it as ‘getting your money’s worth’ out of the system you have contributed so much money to? That’s always helped me…!
And yes Roxanne, do please go and have some checkups. I live in France now, and am still getting used to the system here, so I know it can be harder, but I’m sure it will be worth persevering for you to put your mind at rest - there’s really nothing worse than not knowing.
Take care all - and all the best for tomorrow, Corsa.
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Hi Bahons Thanks for bucking me up will post to you all hopefully in next few days. Jade Goody was never my fave TV celebrity but it is all very sad . I feel good for her ,for getting money for those boys, hope her boyfriends wish to marry her is not to get her money
I have to be at hospital for 7.30 am tomorrow means getting up at six , I am not a morning person, had sickness and diarrhoea today because of worry.
Love bobbie.
Hi Bobbie
How did it go ?
Hi Alice Posted a report to you but do not know whats happened to it. All was ok very little lining build up so ultrasound gave a false reading . Still got all me bits and bobs and see gynae for full report and biopsy results Wed 25th , seems to be ok from what registrar said who discharchged me. Emotionally I am not good better than I was Tues though
Keep in touch let me know how you are doing.
Love Bobbiexx
Hi all Saw Gynae Wed and he has removed a benign polyp , legs went from under me with reief
Love Bobbie
Excellent news Bobbie re the outcome. How are you now after all the worry? Alicex
Hi Alice , Obviously extremely relieved and have a bit more energy without the constant nagging anxiety. To be honest though finding it difficult to get back on even keel again, however I am more interested in my hobbies and trying to get on with some household chores that have been neglected for last six weeks.
Please let me know are you are doing???
Lots of love Bobbiexxx
Hi Corsa
Glad to hear it went well and your mind is at rest!
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Hi Bahons , Thanks for post , I have a bit of fluey lurgy more tickly cough and a bit achy, I also put my back into spasm just plugging the iron in last Fri, so when i cough Phew . Also thank God for Tena lady!!! I suffer from Asthma so have to pamper myself a bit or I get bronchitis. How are you doing???
MY friend who died in her bed a month ago age 87 always said , I will be allright when I’m better’ and all I can say is when!!! seem to lurch from one thing to another.
Love bobbiex