According to the non-cancer world, if I’m not ‘battling’ cancer, I’m on ‘a journey’. Yep, I heard them both again today 
On the outside I managed to smile sweetly and change the subject. On the inside, well, let’s just say forum guidelines don’t allow that kind of language 
So, I’ve decided to do the ‘journey’ everyone says we’re on, but re-write it. Because I can 
A kind of grown up (if only, lol!) version of ‘In my bag I packed’. I have a map (drawn, not always legibly, by the medics and based on sketchy data thanks to my rare cancer), and a destination wish list, but no confirmed booking yet. So I’m hastily grabbing stuff I know I need or might want, and leaving stuff I know I definitely don’t need or want…
I’m taking with me:
any friend who turns up with a bottle and suggests we get drunk together
shed loads of denial
exercise
gin
my dog
chocolate and cake (calorie free, of course)
sunshine, flowers, fresh air
anyone who makes me laugh
I’m leaving behind:
anyone who tells me how brave I am
anyone who suggests I ‘stay positive’
the recommended alcohol intake guidelines
anyone who tilts their head on one side and asks ‘how are you?’
any sense of reality
Have I forgotten anything or anyone?
Haha that just about sums it up!! Gin, chocolate and the dog ??? I’m on my way!! ?
Hi Excellent list, but can I please add to those to leave behind those people who ask how you are and look at your breasts? Xx
Lovely to have your company, ladies, I can see we’re going to get along
Top suggestion, Sunflower! My family and I have had many a chuckle about people doing ‘the flick’. Got to laugh, eh?
It was a lovely day here, making ‘the journey’ less like the highway to hell (apologies to AC/DC fans) and more like Pharrell’s Happy. Had a wonderfully productive day and felt fine until I suddenly found myself sobbing into the supper I am cooking! No idea at all where that came from I really, really want to put the rollercoaster of emotions in the Leave Behind bag, but it won’t fit at the moment. Sigh.
I thought originally my journey was coming to an end when the weekly/daily hospital appointments finished but Unknown to me I had extendable ticket covering the side effects land.
So here I am meeting new people (pain consultants, lymphatic drainage masseurs and more surgeons), taking in the new sites (another hospital, had a special tour of their operating theatre yesterday), losing some unwanted package along the way (the pesky ovaries started to work again so they had to go) and experimenting with local cocktails (the medical kind ones).
I’m still looking for the 3 litre box of silly juice (aka rose wine) that I lost somewhere along the way so if any of you come across it I’m more than ready to drink it on one go ???
Oh herewego, that’s rubbish :(. What treatment are the side effects from? I’m starting rads on Tuesday, 33 of them, and think that’s why my roller coaster keeps going on another loop. I love roller coasters in the real world but not feeling the funny on this one. Confession time: I think I might have found your silly juice last night, hic ;). Only a dribble left, I’m afraid, so s*d the housework, I’m off to do something far more important… Meet you at the next fork in the road later and we can polish off several boxes? ? xx
That’s a seriously cr@p collection of side effects, HWG Sending hugs and a piggy back for the difficult bits of the journey and, of course, silly juice on tap whenever you are feeling up to it. Tat xx
I have created a worldwide shortage of E45 cream and aloe vera plants in anticipation. I already drink loads (and not all of it gin or silly juice!) to the extent my kids’ nickname for me is IncontiMum 'cos I need the loo a lot… Love them really ? xx
I need to add music - especially anything that makes me dance and smile.
Would ditch all the stuff you suggest too . Bon voyage!! xxx
Definitely music, Eileen! I’m thinking cheesy and upbeat for dancing, silly walks, skipping… Have to start with a bit of Dancing Queen, maybe moving on to something like Uptown Funk for the uphill bits and a burst of Adele at the top of a hill? That is if I can resist the urge to belt out ‘the hills are alive’ from the Sound of Music…
Welcome aboard the not-so-good ship Wonky Boob, Blossom I see where I’ve been going wrong with the cream now, what a waste of silly juice, slathering it on my boob!! What are your musical preferences, Bloss? xx
I love a bit of Queen, Blossom You are definitely on my party invite list - can’t wait to see you on the dance floor
What do you reckon the chances are of getting a royal to officially name our ship? For a flag, I think we could go for a jolly roger inspired one and have a pair of boobs crossed out by scalpels. That would cover all the two boob, one boob, no boob variations us lot represent xx
Hi Blossom. Good luck for your appt, sounds like you’ve had a helluva ‘journey’ so far :(. I’m doing ok. 2nd rads session yesterday. One during middle of day and one at 5pm, both have been 2.5 hour round trips, so this is going to be a marathon. No one seems very sure that rads even improve the odds for Angiosarcoma. It has a high rate of recurrence and metastasis… I’ll be rather fed up (polite version) if I do 33 of 'em only to get mets. Oops, walked through a bit of a dark valley there. Need to get back on the hilltops. Let me know what the PS says. Tat xx
What’s the news, Blossom??
How could I leave out Motown, Eileen?! Love it My kids are 18 and 21 this year so we’re having a big party in the summer…going to have so much fun embarrassing the offspring at that one!! I’m involved with an orphanage in Uganda and their choir are back this year, so I’m going to get my fix of African music, rhythm and drumming ♫ Happy days :)