The Waiting Game

Hi,
I’ve had my assessment today. When my doctor examined me 3 weeks ago, she said that the lump was smooth and moveable which was all positive. I was referred to the hospital on the 2 week waiting.
I had the choice of 2 hospitals so without asking any questions, I chose my closest one. I then found out that they only had male consultants. I wasn’t happy with this, so asked to be transferred to the other hospital that did have female consultants, hence the 3 week wait. This last 3 weeks have been hell but mostly because I’ve been stressing out about the assessment.
I was initially examined by one of the nurse practitioners. She seemed to have the same opinion as the doctor and thought it most likely a cyst. Back to the waiting room, to await mammogram and then back to await ultrasound. The sonographer said that she could see the lump and that she needed to biopsy it. Back to waiting room. We’re now called back through to get results from the nurse that I saw first.
It took a moment for me to grasp what she was explaining to me, but basically the ultrasound shows something that they are fairly certain is a cancer. The mammogram doesn’t show it. I asked if it could be something else and she said yes it could, but it was a grade 5 so unlikely to be anything else. Now waiting for the results next Thursday. Has anybody else had a similar issue and it be something other than cancer?

Hi Julesy,
Sorry to see you’re going through this, it’s something we have all been through here, so you’re not alone.
As ever, it’s not really possible to second guess these things, certainly I have seen here that for others who’ve had biopsies, it turned out not to be bc, however, if they have said this to you, then it’s best to be prepared for it as much as one can be.
Do take someone to the appointment with you, as whatever, the result, it can be difficult to take things in.
As ever, it’s the waiting that is the worst bit, but IF you do get a bc diagnosis, then please be assured that the vast majority of us are through it & getting on with life & outcomes for bc treatment are some of the best around.
IF it is bc, then thankfully, it’s been picked up, so it can be sorted out for you.
There’s loads of support here & let us know how you get on.
ann x

Hi Julesy,

Im sorry you didn’t walk away with the all clear today and although they have found something that needed further investigation it still could be nothing to worry about.

Of course they will tell you what they think but they don’t always get it right and we do get ladies in your position reporting back that it was in fact a benign lump so don’t give up hope that all will be well just yet. 

 

If you are diagnosed with breast cancer you will have plenty of support, help and advice across the forum , we’ve just about dealt with the lot between us and there won’t be much we can’t help with.

Im over 3 years post diagnosis and there are so many ladies with years on me! 

 

We know just how stressful this waiting time is but there isn’t a thing you can do other than wait, keep busy and try not to speculate! Please let us know how you get on Xx Jo 

I think I’m in denial today. I wonder why they tell you when they don’t know for certain?

Nothing wrong with denial, Julesy. I was recalled following mammo & remained convinced it was not bc, so didn’t even worry about returning a week later later for the results…& yes, it was bc, but it all turned out fine in the end.
In hindsight, I’m glad I responded this way.
ann x

Hi Ann, So I’ve worked out that I have a 95% chance of having breast cancer, but this means that I have a 5% chance that it isn’t… I will try to hang on to this and keep hoping. Thank you for your message x

Hi Simonee,
Thanks for your message.
Unfortunately I was officially diagnosed last week ?

I’m ok ish. I’m really rediculoulsy body conscious and am struggling with how I’m going to feel about myself. I’ve got my op on 22nd August, just need to deal with it. I spoke to my nurse yesterday, she is going to try and get me some councilling. Hope you’re ok?

I’m on holiday at the moment and so far stupid cancer has done a good job of turning me into a nut job! I have my lumpectomy operation next week. I’m absolutely terrified and tying myself up in knots that I’m going to look like some freak after wards. How bad will I look without my clothes on? I’m sick of being told that nobody will be able to tell. I will know.

Julesy don’t let this ruin your holiday, cancer causes enough stress but don’t let it spoil your time away, you can deal with it all when you get back. 

A lumpectomy generally won’t leave you massively disfigured, If they needed to remove so much that it would then a mastectomy is often recommended instead.

I can only talk from my own experience but I have a slight dent and a feint scar around my nipple and to anyone who didn’t know they wouldn’t have a clue, not that I flash my boobs off to anyone random mind you! 

 

The surgery is really straight forward, I was walking out of hospital within 2 hours of waking up and feeling pretty good, I was tender but not in agony and within a week wasn’t in any real discomfort at all, I only had a small tumour but they removed a Fibrodenema as well but it was all fine and I healed up quickly. 

 

Dont over stress and try and view the op as a good thing, it’s the first step to ridding yourself of this flipping disease once and for all Xx 

Before our holiday we were just looking forward to de-stressing. I think I managed up to mid week and then the demons set in. I don’t do broken, I’ve always said to my husband that if I was in an accident and if the only way to save me was to cut my leg off to let me die. I kind of feel like that now. I can’t stand anything that isn’t semetrical, to the point that I can’t hang anything on the washing line with odd pegs! I have told hubby that if I need chemo, I won’t be having it. I don’t know if I’ll need to have hormone treatment yet but I’m not having that either. PMT is bad enough, but at least that has a start and an end. I’m not ready for an early menopause. I’m so sorry for ranting, you’re so very optimistic and I’m the complete opposite! xx

Symmetrical! I don’t even know what that word I just is lol!

And just for the record 3 years of Tamoxifen hasn’t sent me in to the menopause… I wish!! ?

My situation wasn’t similar. But I can sympathise with the waiting it is pure hell. The worse thing I have been through. People cope with the waiting in different ways. I threw myself into work. I knew mine was cancer so I was going to have everything prepared and ready for September as I am a teacher. Another lady I message walks. The worst thing for me was people telling me it would all be fine, nothing to worry about. These people made me scream inwardly.