Got the results of the bloods I had done a fortnight ago and they can’t find anything wrong,so no underactive thyroid. So I’m back to square one and still have no idea why I’m going to the gym a few times a week, doing a 90 minute yoga class on Sundays and being really strict with my diet, but nothing is happening. When I joined the gym a year ago I thought I would have lost at the very least a stone by now. Even gained about 6lbs in 13 weeks with WW during the summer and they couldn’t give me a reason for it. An NHS programme I was on also failed, all I seem to do is yo-yo between the same 5lbs. It is soul destroying, all the docs say is it’s on account of being post menopausal. I really didn’t want to be a 2 stone overweight lardball in my 50s and I was determined to lose it as I wanted to be able to go to the hospital and say I’m making a huge effort.
Between that and waiting for(hopefully)my final annual check up (it’s been 5 years past October since diagnosis),I am fed up. Woke up with a jolt last night - a recurrent bad dream I always get when I’m waiting for the appointment to drop on the mat. Subconsciously I think I am worried I will fall at the last hurdle. Getting focused on work is a nightmare as well as I seem to check my brain in at the office door every morning, then my mind just drifts.
Cherub,
Through my CAT scan I found out I had thyroiditis. Had to see an endocrinologist who was amazed I seemed so well despite having a crappy (hypo)throid. He put me on tablets and they havent made a scrap of difference to my weight. I feel cheated, lol! (Im also about two stone overweight). I seem to remember theres a lengthy thread on thyroid stuff on this site.
You sound like youre trying so hard and are thoroughly demoralised. Im useless for advice on the exercise and weight loss front, but excellent on the shopping front. All I can say is (and here Im going to sound like Gok Wan), love the you youve got now. Buy it some new clothes, indulge yourself.Stop hating the way you are. You may not lose any weight that way. If I had the secret of weight losss Id market it and get rich, but I do have the conviction that you dont have to lose two stone before you can feel gorgeous. Also, look at Caryn Franklins site for how to dress for your body shape howtolookgood.com/
Thanks mimsy, I’ll check that out. I manged the gym 3 times this week and I have yoga tomorrow am. I’d lost a pound on the scales the other day. What annoyed me more than anything else was my GPs surgery had the result back for a few days when I rang in on Tuesday but they were just marked “no further action”. At the very least I would have thought the GP would have contacted me to tell me and to perhaps give me some tips on where I could be failing. They used to be really good, but now it’s just all about their fat salaries and their targets I think. My OH wasn’t very happy with them when I had BC as he felt they should have been more supportive. The local Maggies told me they get patients complaining about them with regards to this. I did get a call after I was diagnosed 5 years ago, but I’ve since seen my files and it looks like they only contacted me because the Consultant Surgeon told them to!
check out Jon Kabat-Zinn on Google for Mindfulness editation or just google the poem he does at the end of his very long talk called Love after Love by Derek Walcott.I have an underactive thyroid and weight gain is my enemy too,but still on Tax chemo so cant do much about it.I have Zinns cd mindfulness and find them very good for switching over the panic mind.Like you am desperate to address this weight issue in anyway possible and also playing about with 5lb on a yo yo
(((Hugs Mavis)))
Meditation helps but it is so hard to have the dicipline to carry on with it.
Thanks Mavis, I’ve been listening to Kabat - Zinn for about 4 years now (they use it at the local Maggies). I have the meditations on a CD (I like doing the Body Scan when I get the time, OH also likes this as he says it gets him focused). I also have him on a talking CD of one of his books which I loaded on to my iPod as I like to visit it from time to time - a lot of what he says makes a lot of sense to me, not just from the point of view of overcoming cancer, but in the general stuff you drag around with you in adult life.
We do a bit of meditational stuff at Dru yoga on Sundays - a lot of strength positions about getting into your own quiet zone which I really like. The tutor asked if we wanted to get more into this as the weeks go on and we said a resounding yes to this today.
Like you I am getting mightily fed up of the 5lbs on a yo yo weight issue. I’ve decided to be super careful between now and Christmas and cut out everything unnecessary. On the days I can’t get to the gym I will do yoga and a couple of other things at home.
I’ve been trying to lose weight on and off for the last 5/6 years,and I do get mighty fed up. I was diagnosed with an underactive thyroid last June and am now on Thyroxine 125mg per day, that should be enough to kick start an elephant, but my system is still so sluggish. I’ve not been able to work properly this last 2 weeks because I’m waiting for my 5 yr check up and like you fear falling at the last hurdle. I don’t know why 5 years has that much significance but there you go.
I’ve joined a local gym and cna’t wait to get to yoga classes, I understand that it really helps.
Have to admit, I was glad to find out I didn’t have anything wrong, but at the same time disappointed if you can understand that - it means I have to keep looking at other ways of losing weight and diet /gym whatever isn’t working for me. I do however have thinner thighs and better posture so I suppose I should be thankful for that lol!
I’ve let the gym drift for the last 2 weeks as I’ve been busy (I’m on my own running our office as OH is on a contract job and he usually comes with me). Trying to get my act together to go tomorrow and Friday. I’ve also not been sleeping well lately as my clinic appointment is next week (had one booked for last week then it was cancelled by them). I’m assuming this is where they will tell me I’m being discharged as the my end of remission date was 5th October and I’ve had a mammo weeks ago. However, we are both agreed that neither of us will be happy till we’ve been told officially that I’m “technically cured” and “NED”.
I know the Consultants will understand, but I really wanted to go this year saying I’d lost at least a stone, more if poss, which is why I joined the gym and adjusted my eating habits 12 months ago. I also feel that when I go to my GPs they just keep telling me I’m post menopausal but are not really bothering to give me any guidance. It’s like it’s now a catch all for everything. I do find that’s there’s load of help for women going through the meno, but none when you are out the other side. When I tell my GP all I ever get asked is if I’m using stuff like Replens and I feel like shouting “I’ve been telling you I’ve been buying it for the past 4 years”. She doesn’t even seem to know what’s in my notes half of the time.
Oh well, that’s my little grizzly rant for the day
