I feel awful moaning when I know people on here are really suffering but getting so fed up of my hormones. One day I’m happy as Larry getting on with my life, the next I’m screaming & shouting at my husband or I’m in floods of tears feeling no one cares & life isn’t fair. If it carries on I’ll either have no marriage or no friends as I think everyone is getting fed up of me. The slightest stupidest thing can set me off. Thanks for letting me have a moan. X
Sorry to hear you are suffering from mood swings. Please don’t beat yourself up about it. You have been through a very stressful time & it could well be the hormone therapy if you are on that too. Just apologise to people after & explain it’s the medication. Hope you have a better day tomorrow xx
Dear Anita
Please don’t feel awful, moan away to us on here if you need to, we can take it. Sometimes you just need to ‘let it all out’ rather than bottling everything up. If it is any consolation I remember being exactly the same when I was undergoing treatment. People try their best to help but I think that they can only fully empathise if they have been through it themselves, they don’t realise just how tough it can be so sorry but they’ll just have to cut you a bit of slack at this time, so there. I am sure that lots of people do care about you. Don’t be so hard on yourself, just concentrate on what you need and getting better.
I am currently having Herceptin till Jan and Exemestane hormone tablets. Couldn’t manage Letrozole, made me very ill. Am at home on my own due to kids at Uni. Have a part time job which does help to take my mind off things, but having bouts of depression, I feel fed up that cancer got to me, not managing to look at my body due to mastectomy and finding it difficult to keep positive at times when I’m alone in an empty house.I am tired and ache all the time. Am interested in Mindfullness, it maybe something that can help. Would love to find out about it if anyone can help please. I use music to relax and going to start and swim soon. Money is an issue so anything I can do without too much expense is great.
Hi ladies, I’m two years post dx (sept 14). Had mx, implant recon (5 ops due to complications), 6 months of chemo and rads. Started on tamoxifen which made my flushed and depression much worse. Moved on to zoladex and anastrazole which still didn’t agree with me. I stopped all meds in July.
I’m not advocating stopping meds, it’s just what I had to do for my sanity and quality of life - and that of my family.
This year I have also had counselling, attended Macmillan Hope course (a bit like group therapy working through all the issues to help you move on), found a hospice with a drop in day offering advice, reiki and chats with other women in the same situation. I also do yoga and get out walking every day.
This last 6 months I have made huge progress, don’t know if it’s time is the healer, or a combination of the above but there really is hope in the future. I’ve even started a new job after 2 years out of work.
During rads I discovered Yoga Nidra which is like guided meditation/mindfulness/ visualisation. You can download free from the internet. I loaded onto my phone and plugged myself in whenever I needed to calm and relax. Listen to a few as there are different styles - visualisation / deep breathing / guided whole body relaxation,
Sorry to waffle on! Hope some of this is useful to you. There is light at the end of the dark dark tunnel but you have to work a bit to get to it. Xx
Your post puts in words precisely how I’m feeling. Anger comes up towards those I should respect. Trying to increase exercise but feel quite isolated. People rallied round when I told them I had DCIS but now I’m through the treatment it’s as If I’ve disappointed them by recovering.
Hi Cath, once all the drama is over people think it’s done and dusted and we should just be getting on with our lives but it is a lot easier said than done .Once treatment is over I think it really hits you that you have had a potentially life threatening illness and it takes time to get over this .Dont give yourself a hard time for struggling .There are “moving forward courses” that BCC run that may help if there is one near you ,think there details are posted in this section of the site when they have new courses set up.
If you look at the main site and search for events near you it will tell you when the next moving forward course near you is .
My GP said you can’t underestimate the impact of being faced with your own mortality has on you psychologically .
Hi Leigh I don’t think anyone who hasn’t been through this can understand how it impacts on you .I gave up trying to explain to O/H and friends and now I just talk to people who have been though it !Dont give yourself a hard time for not being right yet.I am 18 months on and I think I am only really getting anywhere near “normal” now.R u on Tamoxifen /Letrozole as that can impact on your energy levels and mood .